My last week @ PwC.. (including 1st anniversary of Working life)~

well..my anniversary is actuallie on 3rd july..but this week i have been so busy this week so onli now do i have the time to settle down and write a little on this...

hee..well..my 1st anniversary sorta passed in a flash...went to eat steamboat buffet with ee and yz at hotel royal..(not nice -.-) the dinner was disappointing but nonetheless got to meet up w yz and ee...seems like quite sometime since we reallie met and sit down for a small chat..=) so was kinda happie abt that..

that was also the first time i met tianyun's bf, delanny (i hope i spelt it right)..hee..just when i am leaving..suddenly feel like i am bonding better than ever w the ppl there...that day susan (one of the administators) came and chit chat w me and asked me why i am leaving etc..then jeanie yang also chap in halfway..it's weird..cos when i was there for the whole year..i seldom talk to them..at most is those hi, bye kinda shit..but...well..i guess when u are leaving, ppl starts to treat u differently =\

anywayz, main point is i have worked for ONE whole bloody year!!! actuallie it feels longer than that..perhaps due to the amount of work load...since jan i haven been going home at a decent time..until recently when i know for sure i am leaving, i have been going home at 6+..otherwise, it's mainly 7+, 8 and those horrible days of 9+10 at the beginning of the year..those were the days man...

anywayz this whole week i have been eating like a pig!! tues lunch aglio olio, steamboat dinner, wed lunch had ramen, thurs lunch curry rice, thurs night tony roma's, fri lunch sakae sushi, fri night zhi cha!! omg...SO MUCH FOOD...=( i feel bloody fat!

hee...i felt my whole week was packed w activities...hee..tues night go for anniversary celebration (yay!), wed night went to watch transformers w bao and yz...thurs night went tony roma's w my p&g team + chiam~ and i had no time to pack my things and it's friday!! =.=

anywayz..on thurs went suntec's tony roma's for dinner w them...sat ros' car there..(a little bit of awkward silence..somehow i tink she wanted to fetch ty instead..but welllll..ahahha...actuallie i din reallie talk much at the dinner...nothing to reallie talk to them abt..and when they asked me for a speech i was like "..." hehe...dunno wad to say lahz..so after that we went ben and jerry's...-.- actuallie the whole thing was just abt seow, ty and ros..onli the 3 of them talking..and i was like just hmm..kinda bored..=p and i onli knew that day tt danwei lives so freaking near me 0.o hahha..

FRIDAY - LAST DAY@ WORK...

boohoo...yesterday was my last day at work...i spent my whole day running up and down the building..trying to get ppl to sign that bloody clearance list -.- horrible thing to do...but it's cool in a way cos i nv go to some of the floors and dept b4...=p lunch went w sharon wang and ty to sakae...sharon's treat! (thank you sharon!)

well...finally handed over my seagate (GOODBYE!) and my P&G..a little sad but tt's wad it's abt isn't it? haha..anywayz i spent my last few days "guiding" the new A1 abt P&G stuffs..sometimes i wonder if i was like her when i just came?..someone tells u sth but the next min u forget..but i can distinctly rem wad i told her...i guess tt's wad snr feels like ( it's a good feeling) hahaha..well..i wun get to experience that anymore..

at 4+, li wen they all came to gimme my farewell gift, i saw the BIGGEST GG5 paper bag...inside is a bag =) kinda surprised they got me sth from GG5...happie happie..and they wrote me a card...altho they started with almost the same line of "can't believe u are leaving", the content was all very sweet and full of fond memories..i reallie like to receive cards w content...=D

but wad reallie surprised me were the 2 VTs, of which one i nv even worked with b4! they gave me a little farewell present too =) i think it's reallie sweet!! it's reallie the tot that counts sometimes =)

then ros they all gave me my first real branded present! a TIFFANY necklace~ *eyes sparkle* haha...but i reallie reallie din expect tt lahz..(no wonder ty said i will love my present)..it's a pretty heart necklace =) they also wrote me a card...omg..stupid ros ask me to read it in front of them..(cos she knew i would cry!! she knew it and asked me to read on purpose! grrr) true enough, just read like 2 lines...tears start to gather =.= so i closed the card but the tears still flowed..but no where near as dramatic as it was when i first told ros the news..=p so anywayz it was photo taking session..


CK, me, Ros


ros and me~


me and my lovely neighbour, STY..hehe
(see my necklace?? =p)


Ros, me and STY...oh man i am gonna miss them lots =(


My P&G team (w/o KEL =\)


Me and Sharon Chiam =)


me and shidah =)


my fave gossiping kakis! i will miss all the bitching at work~


my lunch kakis!! i will miss them lots too! =(

i spent such a long time packing my crap =.= in the end i have 4 big bags -.- luckily, chiam was there to help me carry them down =p... i have only been there for a year and i have so much rubbish..haha..and sorrie ty, i forgot to leave tuxedo sam to keep u company =(


well..i have officially left PwC..who knows..maybe one day i will return...who knows...but anywayz..monday will be the start of my new job..hopefully things will be well and all...*looking forward to the future*

the toughest decision i have made...


today i have finally made the decision to move forward and leave my comfort zone @ pwc...i went to talk to pwc hr and my snr mgr ytd...


i deliberated over it for very long...shld i shld i not? but i decided i shld give this a try..a risk no doubt...but a new beginning as well..


went to talk to dorcas ytd and she spent most of her time trying to tell me the career path and how an expert in tax is actually highly sought after ( i dun believe -.-) and how staying here also has a lot of future..blah..anywayz i went to look for her to ask abt the procedures to tender...simple qn...long story =.= still say she sees huge potential in me during the uk secondment interview (excuse me then why nv choose me?)..do u know if i was chosen, there's no way i would quit? hahaha but tt's another story ...


so after talking to her, she said i shld talk to someone who has been in this line for a longer time to hear diff points of view...ok..i agreed..so i decided to go talk to ros..it was too emotional for me to bear...i only walked in talked for barely 2 sentences and i started T_T like tap lidat..non stop..she say i am so silly..i agree..but i reallie very she bu de...my whole year here...i have been working for them...like 3/4 of the time..i find it hard to say good bye...but i am glad that she understands and she is very encouraging..(imagine if i go talk to tsn, she will scream at me, scold me for being irresponsible and all)...actuallie maybe part of ros also tot so..but at least she din show or say...so i am happie abt it...she was so nice...she offered to help me write a testimonial...and also to talk to hr abt it if i need her to...she asked me if chging is reallie wad i want...actuallie i DUNNO wad i want..tt's WHY i am going to try out banking..if things reallie dun work out there..i think i will come back..altho quite hard to pull down my face and ask..i dunno..now i can't reallie see wad lies ahead..it's a big unknown...but i've decided to take the risk nonetheless..wish me luck!

i think it's not only the ppl that i miss..it's the whole idea of not being able to come back to this building, this office, this seat...(today's a saturday as i typed..the top was saved on fri)..even taking the lift made me sad...this will be the last weekend i will come back to pwc! hai~ am i the only loser that will cry so much when leaving?? =\ but just very sad...everytime anyone mentions abt it..i will start to tear...>_< ytd talked to my dad abt leaving, then he said "but i see u are so sad to leave pwc" then i start to T_T AGAIN...shit..just so emotional abt this..hai~ ytd also talked to shidah abt it a little..then also teared..wah lao..i spent my time in office tearing...zzz
hai~

but yes..i have finally signed the offer letter ie NO TURNING BACK..and i tendered alr..altho carol say that i have to pass to tsn in the end...cos james not in office till tues..which might be reallie quite late since i am leaving on 6th...so ...wish my GOOD luck manz..talking to tt auntie on monday will reallie be a horrible experience...i alr can picture the horrible scene..and i think i WILL..yes..once again cry...zzz freakz..i am reallie made of water -.-

anywayz i am starting on 9th...a little excited but more of scared and SIAN...cos i reallie dun like to adapt to a new place all over again..and i dunno if the ppl there will be nice anot...ade said the pte banker tt i will be helping is very fierce..>_<" i am scared...but i shan;t think so much liaoz...shun qi zi ran...just like when i first came, i also scared like hell but i have survived till now..=p yes! i just need some time to adjust~

maplesea 2nd anniversary at suntec city

haha..time for some more light hearted things..i went to the maplesea anniversary at suntec on saturday w ade and her bro..haha..so funny...we look so out of place there...2 23years old and 1 21 years old...lol..the place turned out to be pretty small..a little disappointing cos i tot it will be more big scale and more decorations...but no leh...only minimal deco...the top of the booths were mushrm tops...got blue, green, horned, zombie and the orange ones..lol...dam weird got red colour ones...and we were like thinking...maple got red mushrm..? =\ lol
the stage was for the gacha mob...(sth like bingo lidat) based purely on luck...the most interesting thing for me is the music played...lol~ all the maple songs...i feel like i am reallie walking in maple o.o hahaha...quite funni lahz...then see so many kids and their parents ... i think some of the parents also got play..seriously..haha
anywayz we din reallie play the games since mostly for kids and seriously, too juvenile for us to participate..=\win le also feel paiseh kind...hehe...so we onli participate in the gacha mob ...where we can just sit there and look at our cards...keke..anywayz, in the end, after verifying our acct and turning the zakum hand of fate (50 50 chance of getting hit or miss), ade and i both got hit on first try...ade's poor bro got miss on both tries =(...anywayz ade got a maple memo pad and i got an asiasoft water bottle?!?! the water bottle very ugly =( i very sad...i rather get memo pad...lol...
anywayz overall quite fun lahz...cos first time join real life maple event.kekeke...and prob will be the last time...
btw...a mini shopping spree in mango, i got a pair of jeans for 49 bucks~!!! hehehe...thx to ade for bugging me to try on the jeans =) ade's poor bro...kept running in and out of the mango shop cos every 30 mins is the gacha mob thing...so i think he went out like 3 times...meaning we spent almost 2 hours in the shop! one shop onli lo..haha..i am happie w the jeans i got..altho compared to ade, my jeans is nothing..she got a pair of jeans, a berms/shorts and a skirt...i tot the skirt was a bit pricey..63 bucks...but she say mango things...so i was like..ok..=\

read something on a fren's blog...suddenly, seeing the photo of us tgt...makes my heart ache...wad was written as caption made me even more upset...i dunno wad got over me...suddenly got emotional in the office..but i was facing the screen...no tears flowed...but definitely threatened to...and i reallie look hideous last time -.- i dunno what the hell i did to my hair..=.= once in a while, the caption will appear in my mind...and i wonder why i am so affected by it...i wanna forget..pls let me..

to chg or not to chg

i am in a dilema now...so hard to make a decision...i went for interview at ade's bank ytd...interview went well...she expressed interest in hiring me and even offered to pay off my comp to do away w the 1 month notice...she din reallie ask me much..just to get to know my backgrd a little...wad's the job i am doing also...very very short interview..like 5 -10 mins..hahah...i can tell that she is reallie in need of ppl...

but now...the prob is shld i?? i am reallie getting comfy here...altho there are still some ppl tt i can't reallie stand..but then...doesn't mean tt i go there, the ppl will all be nice ...and seriously i will miss some of the ppl i met here...=( tho i am not sure if they will miss me...haha

i am trying to weigh the pros and cons now...have to make a decision soon ...i reallie think this is a very good opportunity...but do i wan the chg? do i? i am confused..

if i stay, there's a stable and secure pay increment, no need to reallie worry abt $$ reallie...go bank, increment not fixed..ppl might get more than u..=x ...haha..i think i like the feeling of not being better or worse off..just being the norm...if i go to the bank and i get paid less than my peers next time..then i will be like dam dulan lo..=.= i dunno..

but this is reallie a good chance to go into the banking industry..once i go into a bank it will be much easier to go to another one next time..realle..somemore this time i dun have to go thr all the interview hassle...just a short one...so cut a lot of trouble...ahhh...wad shld i do?

prospect wise of cos bank will be much better...there's onli so much u can do in personal tax...
stress lvl..i guess will be higher in bank..but then think of it this way..when i become AH next time, stress lvl also dam high...everyday look at status..=.=

the thing is if i go, i dunno how is shidah gonna handle seagate..she will reallie cry lo..=( and li ling will prob kill me cos most prob all the work will go to her...shit -.- i dun like the idea of leaving them at this time...it's reallie quite a bad timing...if this chance came in aug, i will have less to consider...hai~ anywayz, going there means i have to adapt all over again lehz...i very scared of new environment...*shivers*

hmmm...actuallie over the few days i alr tot over it..if she reallie offers me, i will take up the job...that's IF...now..when i work, half the time i alr have the mentality tt i am going..which is bad =\ dun wanna get my hopes too high...

UK secondment...

it's confirmed...i din get it...boo...actuallie i am not disappointed that i can't go..but more on the fact that it means i am not as capable as the 2 tt got chosen...one of them is an A1 like me...=( ..the other one is my neighbour...so i will be seeing an empt seat for at least 4 months...saddening tot...>_<

then ade tells me she might wanna get a coach bag tt costs 800 bucks...which ie means she wun go tw le...boohooo...T.T

i wanna go overseas!!!!

只因真爱，公主王子，有情人终成眷属只发生在童话世界里，偶像剧才会变得如此美丽。。。
当剧情结束，回到现实世界时, 多了一份失落感。。。

入戏太深的结果。。。。。。

ktv session today was horrific...din enjoy -.-

when u are singing...would u like ppl to be talking and chatting? i dunno...i dun like it...selfish maybe, a little too over demanding..but felt so disrespected...but i also dun like the feeling of everyone just staring into blank space when u are singing...contradicting tot...=\ i duno leh...i got irritated...even tho no one reallie did anything to piss me off...mood swing i suppose...i dunno why i can have a sudden dislike for someone out of the blue..so much so that hearing the voice also annoys me...wad is happening to me??

i think the session went well for everyone else...if i din spoil the thing...=\ i dunno..maybe i selfishly wish that the centre of attention was on me...? maybe......but once again i find myself in the zone of not wanting to care abt wad is happening ard me..in fact, i got annoyed at things said that i had no idea abt...maybe felt left out too ba...i reckon if they have 1 person ktv at a cheap price next time, i might go... tho i sang the songs i "wanted" to...but din reallie enjoy it...some songs i reallie sang w full force, some i just can't be bothered...even my fave jia zhuang...fu1 yan3 de chang le chang...wad for?? to think i looked forward to it so much today.........bad bad..

btw..i am going for an interview for the UK secondment later...i am a little excited, a little nervous, a little scared and a little lost..cos i dunno if i reallie reallie want this..

just now during lunch, we were talking abt the work there...seems even MORE boring than here (that's saying a lot)..and they worked OT till 9+ 10 everyday! even in singapore i also dun work for that long..onli once in a blue moon kind..haha..oh well..i dunno..i think i am onli looking forward to the TOURING if i ever get to go~ but competition is stiff and onli 2 places available..ie NO CHANCE..hahah

oh well..if i dun get it, i wun be toooooo sad, disappointed no doubt but wun be too sad ba...can try again next year~!

i realise to survive in this world...u need to WANT to know wad's happening..u need to be a kpo...altho it's the total opp of my character...i try to make myself..more "interested" in the happenings...

actuallie i reallie dun like to find out what's happening to others (esp at work)...like when they are gossiping abt certain clients or wad...i am just NOT interested...in short, i dun care...but i guess this is bad...cos tt means no interaction w the other colleagues..=.=

life's hard...wanna be myself..but i can't...actuallie i reallie can't stand it when ppl chou4 re4 nao4 and act so nosy and san ba...ergh...=\ i rem got once i was w a grp of frenz outside...then 3 ppl (strangers) started quarrelling...arguing over dunno wad crap..then my frenz just happily stood there and watched..hmmm..at that point of time i just wanna get out of there...somehow i feel like i was given a chance, against my will, to peep into other ppls' lives...i dun like that feeling..i am sure if i were the ppl in the argument, i also dun wan ppl to be looking at me from the sides, those shi bu guan ji de yang zhi...=\ i hate all these noseparkers.. but now i look back, maybe it's a good thing that someone was watching also lah...who knows if they might start throwing punches at each other...at least there will be on lookers to stop them? argh..i dunno..i think i just need to "care" more of the happenings ard me...

well..wad caused me to write all these is cos i just feel that i am in this office, minding my own business...but this isnt gonna get me "far" with the ppl at the top..so in a sense, being "nosy" might be a good thing...=\ i dunno..i guess this is crap...but just feel so out of place suddenly...=(

another miserable day at work i guess..................

20 years old age
10 years old mentality
30 years old body

i dunno how long before i will start to age...but my mentality is still so freaking dependent on my parents...i dun feel like a grown up at all...23 years old...sounds so old...but i am still behaving like a 10 years old...everything waiting for my parents to solve for me...it's time i be responsible for myself.

Looking at the VTs in my office made me realise just how OLD i am...being young is reallie so different..the vibrance...the energy...i reallie have no energy at all to do the things they do..and the things they say? i can nv bring myself to say those...it's beyond me...that came the point when i can't deny i am old anymore...look ard us...how many successful ppl are younger than us...i feel like i am wasting my life away..waiting for the end to come..my life will fade away quietly, peacefully as though i nv exist..sudden disgust with the way i am spending my youth away...i can nv be young again..but am i doing something hong hong lie lie so that i can recall back when i am older and smile at those memories?

i just read on the net abt a ger who died cos she was working for very long hours with the lappie on her lap...apparently...there was a blood clot formed and when she stood up, the clot flowed to her heart and she collapsed on the spot...scary...i dunno if that is true...but anywayz ppl..pls be careful...and try to take a break once in awhile while working...

once again..i am in the office on a weekend...today's a sunday...i ask myself..am i just plain inefficient? or do i reallie have a lot to do? hmmm...everyday i grumble grumble abt the load of work..but seriously...if i din spend time chatting on msn, chatting on sametime, surfing net..would i have finished them on time? =( i dunno...i dunno how to cope w my programs..P&G alone can kill..let alone seagate?? argh...i cannot stand seagate...i rather do other programs than that...it's so confusing and irritating..boooo..why oh why did they take away my other programs but left me stuck w seagate?? i am getting a little worried...are they taking away some of my program cos they think i am incapable? no doubt, it's a relief when they lighten my portfolio..but still...i dunno wad they were thinking when they did that..i can onli hope it's cos my snr mgr wants to lighten my burden..and not scare me off when i am still an A1...keke...
peak period so far has been...well..manageable...thanks largely to my colleague who sits beside me..every little qn i go bug her..^^;; i haven stayed till the lengendary 12 midnight...cos the ppl in my team seldom...usuallie only till 10++ so i am kinda lucky in a sense to be in this team...hopefully nothing much will chg when i become an allocation holder...=) wish me luck in july~

i am kinda regretting telling the world i signed up for the slimming thing..now ppl expects results..if there's none, wad will they think? snigger behind my back and say waste so much money and no results..? if anyone says that in front of me...i swear i will reallie slap that person..
some ppl ard me reallie dunno how to cha2 yen2 guan1 se4...ppl's face alr so black still continue joking or harping on the same thing...-.- *shake head* sometimes..i reallie cannot stand such ppl...they think it's funni then wad abt the person who is the one being teased??? very senseless.
bottomline is...i kinda reallie wished no one knew abt it...maybe except ade who can understand wad i feel =P but then again, she also scold me stupid ger T_T no one understandsssssssss...hai~..hope all goes well...i reallie wanna wear my sleeveless tops and walk ard with my head held high!

why are some guys so jian and lame?
i am starting to think that maybe we are seeing more and more gers that are "heartless" or behave like players to protect themselves from being hurt from such jerks......
gers shld reallie learn to protect themselves...when a guy changes heart(literally translation from chi) ...he can be totally freaking JIAN! when u see situations when the guy is a freaking jerk, u can't help but wanna scold that ass and beat the shit out of him...i dun understand how the mind of a guy work? no love = no friendship?? hmmmmmm...even if there's no frenship, u dun have to hurt others -.- total disregard for others' feelings just to get wad u want? equals a despicable piece of shit!

(dun worry..nothing happened to me :P just some tots on recent events)

hmm...recenlty one of my PRIMARY sch mate, sms me and asked if i had joined the Pri 6 class yahoo grp...

i was like wah?? i din know there is one and wah! primary sch one leh 0.o so surprised...

after that he added me on msn..and we started chatting..then i realised something...they have been going out for gatherings for the past few years since the last gathering i went to ( i think is right after jc?) so anywayz...i was a bit sad that i wasn't informed abt all these...then he told me there will be a gathering coming up soon and asked if i wanna go ...seriously? i dun wan to go...everyone has changed so much...i go there..i dunno who to hang out with anymore..but he seems very enthu abt it so i was like.." sure if i can find time off work" <<-- lame excuse..

after tt i joined the yahoo grp...gosh..i wish i nv did..i wish i wasn't informed of all these..i wish he nv managed to find me...i feel like i have missed out so much from the rest...like i have been living in a deserted island and suddenly rescued back to civilisation...but i have gotten so used to being on that island..i can't fit in...as i was reading their past msgs..i feel so sad..so sad till i almost cried out...i feel so out of touch with their world but all along they have been keeping in contact when i tot EVERYONE was like me..all have lost contact?! argh...

i dunno how to express wad i reallie feel..but i am kinda pissed too that they actuallie FORGOT to add me in the yahoo grp till now? i mean that's like...3-4 years?! wtf -.- angry sia...seriously i dun feel like going to the gathering but does that mean i am gonna let myself lost contact w them all over again? i dunno....i reallie dun...somehow i wanna keep in contact..but yet feel like strangers with them..=( help! i dunno wad to do...

i left a msg in the yahoo grp..like hmm...3 ppl responded...how kind -.- and i even have one classmate who kept my letter from 1997! wahhhh 10 years sia...dam cool~ brings back fond memories...=) but it ends there...i dun reallie wanna go see these ppl..i can alr IMAGINE the awkwardness of not meeting for so long...cos they still kept in contact so they prob wun feel the weirdness..but i can! ewwwwwwww...ok...i think i am not going!

ladies and gentlemen...i have made a big decision ytd to go sign up for body perfect ie slimming program!

hmmm...well...b4 i went for the consultation i was still telling myself...u must walk out of there "alive" and not be conned into spending money....but well...=\ i am sucker at rejecting ppl...reallie...esp when it's sth that i wan badly~~!arghh...stoopid me...

anywayz...i have reallie given this some tot...i mean...vanity is one thing..having more confidence is another...i dunno how to be confident if i am not confident w the way i look...yaya..self confidence not onli depends on looks..but hey...when u have no looks AND no special skills, wad's there to be confident abt?! i just wanna wear a sleeveless for once and not feel so inferior in it~my onli worry is it wun be effective =( ..boo...ppl who ain't fat aren't gonna get how i feel..seriously...besides...you can onli be young this once..i dun wanna live it in regret..money can always be earned..at most i cut down on shopping and expensive food~ i will survive...beautifully~

yay~ i just made a cake today..but b4 i can take a pic of it..my mum cut it up =\ booo...anywayz it doesn't look very appealing..but it actuallie tastes not bad! heehee..actuallie baking is so fun~ but the cleaning up isn't -.- maybe if i have interest in this, i can start thinking of doing it as my career?? muahahha...i dunno..still exploring wad i like to do...either i continue to be stuck at my current job, or i take up sth tt is totallie not related...like baking or make up artist?? hehehe...
looking forward to my next break from work..which is on 30 apr...sounds near..but seems so faraway to me...zzz..i hate work~!

have u ever had a dream..tt feels sooooo real..u almost believed it happened..?i can still rem every little details...the body warmth of the ppl in the dream...it feels so real, i felt "unreal" when i woke up...i wish it reallie happened..*wry smile* i think it's just the time of the month..i am getting emotional over nothing...but whenever i think abt the dream, my heart aches...

recently..the image of me smoking kept appearing in my mind...ppl who know me shld know how much i loathe smokers...the fact tt i am picturing myself smoking is scaring me...i feel reallie lost and i dunno wad caused this...i am a little worried...

self esteem has reached a new low...i feel fat and useless..=(

hmm..some tots tt i feel like saying out loud...

well..i am..and have always been a little disgusted with the way 2 of my frenz are behaving..like they are two freaking twins...i admit...it is a good feeling to be very close to someone and know that u can depend on that person whenever u need help etc..but their closeness has reached a stage where i find it revolting...is it possible that one day they can learn to be independent of each other...? and be on their own?
ever since jc, uni, now work..they have always been sticking together...it gets to a point when it's just too much! maybe it's reallie like fated for them to be stuck together..?i dunno...but ewww..i cannot take it..
excuse me?? dun u all have an identity of ur own?how can 2 ppl stick to each other like glue?? i cannot stand it..call me sour grapes or wadever lah..but seriously..i think they need to stop living in their own world...hello? du li yi dian hao ma??
there was a time when i tot i have gotten used to it..but i realised it is just that i chose to ignore this...cos everytime i think of it...they disgust me...so much so that i dun wanna be ard them at all...being close is fine, being close till u have no identity? i cannot deal with that...i feel like the two of them have become an entity..not 2 separate ppl...ewww...the sheer tot of it...gross...
maybe..just maybe i am jealous..how come they always have company in wadever they did? for me..i have always been alone...always...since pri sch, i went to my sec sch alone...from sec to jc, also alone...from jc to uni's course, alone...from uni to work, ALONE...everytime, my good frenz will end up in the same sch or course..always me alone...i dunno if that's called independent? or no choice? hmmm...but i have alr gotten used to doing things on my own, being on my own...in fact i ENJOY this feeling of being alone...which is why i can't stand it when the 2 of them are always doing things TOGETHER...omg...pls...get a life of ur own...they dropped f maths together, went to acc together, took the same classes, went for the same electives, took up the same job, ended up in the same dept...ewwwwww...maybe it's just me..but i cannot stand it...cannot at all...

The Phantom of the Opera~



Venue: Esplanade Date: 1 April 2007 Time:2.oopm

The 2nd musical i am gonna watch...
actuallie i wasn't very enthusiatic about it at first...all the way till we actuallie sat down..then i finally got into the mood of watching it...

b4 this, i have actuallie watched the movie a few years ago (if anyone rems)...so the story line is more and less still inside my mind...starting scene...the auction..
when i saw the monkey musical box, i was like wow...i reallie feel like i was brought back to that time...i dunno why..but i felt a sudden familiarity (guess it's the movie?) everything was like wad i remembered from the movie...when the cloth covering the chandelier was lifted, the music started playing..wah i got goosebumps from it...i was like reallie so "touched" i can't find a better word for that emotion at the moment..but i was reallie like...close to tears...errr..i dunno why..i guess it was mainly the music...it was well...for a lack of better word, cool~ =)
i guess the start was rather impressive..and as the chandelier got lifted up, we were brought back to the past...

the next scene shows their rehearsal of the play they are gonna perform... there's this prop, an elephant...when they turned it ard, there were 2 ppl inside playing poker..haha..down to every nitty gritty details..

i reallie like the songs...made me so tempted to go buy the CD..hehe..the props are also very impressive...i wonder how they did that...=) the candles on the floor, the boat, all the little things...very cool~

at the end, i nearly cried for the phantom...he is not evil or bad..but just someone whose love was unrequited...

they definitely deserve the applause...i guess this is the moment they live for, the applause and appreciation of the effort they have put in...*clap clap*

ok..i was a little put off by ppl who fell aslp..i was like...? excuse me?? maybe not everyone can fully appreciate the beauty of it...?i dunno...and there was a couple in front of me...making out -.- i was so disgusted by that...get a motel ppl...seriously..it gets a little distracting..if u dun respect it, then dun watch it..

More tots on bday...

well..without knowing...i am 23 alr...twenty freaking three...sounds dam old...then i look back and see my life...wad have i accomplished so far? hmm...i duno...i wish i have more clue of wad i am gonna do w my life..i am now just a happie go lucky person now....live one day is one day kind..dun like that kind of feeling...dun like at all...i also wanna have a RAINBOW DAY where i can see wad's ahead......

Late birthday wishes...

ahh..i have been so busy recently that i din even have the time to sit down and think to myself wad i wish for...i have cut 4 cakes and all 4 times when ppl ask me to make a wish..i din reallie wish anything...something like...everyone healthy healthy...safe and sound kinda crap...
but wad do i reallie wish for? hmmmm...for the time being, i wish for more time to myself...time is nv enough when u have started working...the 2 pathetic days of weekend...is just not enough...one day i use to rest then without knowing it's sunday..the horrible anticipation of monday aka start of work~! sighz...boring...boring life...
i guess i also wanna find that special someone to share my life with? although every now and then i will think to myself, do i reallie wan a r/ship or just someone to be there as and when i need? (err..get wad i am trying to say?)
well..anywayz the above was typed at 10pm in office when they suddenly off the lights...so it was a sign for me to go home...on my way home, i saw a couple arguing..i dunno if they are like together or wad cos the guy was quite rough on the ger...i think he was drunk or wad cos even though i wasn't super near them, i could smell beer...so quite scary..i so scared as i walked near them...but after that i think some ppl think the guy a bit over and went to help...as one guy held on to the drunkard, the ger ran away...i guess they are not together ? i dunno...then the drunkard got violent and wanted to fight w the guy holding on to him...zzz...dramatic sia..and i so kpo...just stood at the bus stop to watch as i attempt to book a cab..but well..once again, booking a cab at 10+ in this area proves to be an impossible task...i took train home..reached at 1115 ..my latest yet...all yz la...ask me to wait for her...then in the end tell me she can't go ~ grrr...but i know it's her mgr lah...can't blame her..
i guess i have digressed a lot from the main topic..but..well...my bday wish...have more time~~ =P

(added on 7 April)

i forgot to mention that on 16 Mar, my frenz came to my house and gave me a surprise!!
at first, i was talking to ade on maple then she told me she needs to go bathe and ask me to msg ks if she wanna pq at night...so i did and i din suspect anything at all...hahaha..they all very convincing...one side msg me and say will come online, one side alr on their way here..hahaa
then ee also msg me say she wanna come gimme my bday present plus cakey~ hooray
so she came and we were deciding if we wanna go give bao a surprise too when bao called me and asked me to open the door..i was like??? hahaha....anywayz i went to open the door, i tot onli got her leh..who knows i open the door and saw ks, yx, ade, zy and john..wow...big crowd..hehehe


then all come in and sing song cut cake etc...it was reallie a pleasant surprise...seems like i haven had a surprise for bday for awhile...hehe...so reallie enjoyed it~




my watch and cakey~

my 2 days in P&G...

just a lil backgrd, P&G is my main program so most of the tax returns i do are for P&G ppl..

well..i was in P&G's office in Novena Sq for the past 2 days..cos we had to go there to give a tax briefing etc...wah..their office very nice lo...we even went to the SKII office to take a look..like tour lidat..the SKII office reallie very nice, the front desk there is like a departmental store...very bright and white and ALL the products displayed there..super cool..for that office, they have a special pass to go, they only allow those working on SKII to have the access card..inside the office is reallie like a paperless environment, the layout of the office very nice..and very spacious...they even have those celebs who helped to dai4 yan2 SKII's photos on the walls...reallie BIG posters kind...and their window is like those whole length kind so the office looks very bright and u can look out(tho the view is nothing much) hee... but then again.. perhaps everything is still very new so looks very good..
anywayz, the rest of the office also very nice...u know when u go out from the office, usually there's a button to push, but instead of a button, they have this sensor thingy..u just need to either put ur hand or ur feet(for those who dun have a free hand) under the sensor then the door will open le..so cooL~ which i think is more user frenly for them since they always have to bring their laptop with them everywhere they go...very totful..
i think it's kinda hard to express how nice their office reallie is just by words...but if u ever have a chance to visit P&G's office, go to the SKII office on the 15th floor!! hahaha =)

well..i am now stuck in office on a sat..so kinda sian 1/2...but sometimes i like it on a sat...less disruptions and no snr breathing down my neck to ask me do this do that...=).. i wanna go on a long break and the peak peak is not even here yet!!

CNY gathering @ ks's house... (an impromptu post)

well..it's been a LONG time since i went to ks's house...MILO has grown bigger! junior looks the same, brownie still stuck outside as usual and there's a new found kitty (found by ks's bro's gf -.-) hahaha..oh well..me n lyn reached there first and half the time we spent there playing with the little kitty...*damn cute* and the other half we were talking abt maple..sry lyn if u felt left out..hee
(the kitty)
after that ade n yx came and we have enough ppl for mj! yay! but most of the time we were still discussing about maple...sry once again to those who felt left out or annoyed..hehee...it's just a natural thing to talk abt when u have so many frenz playing maple...hehe...

well..i think it has been a reallie long time since we gathered at someone's house for a slp over...so overall had fun...but somehow i feel that as we all start working next time (the others i mean), we wun have much chances like this anymore..saddening tot...hai~ anywayz, happie piggy new yr to all..tho a bit late but cny got 15 days mah~ hehehe...

I know this is very anti climax...but i suddenly came across this site and i saw DONUTS...so...=\

You Are a Boston Creme Donut

You have a tough exterior. No one wants to mess with you.But on the inside, you're a total pushover and completely soft.You're a traditionalist, and you don't change easily.You're likely to eat the same doughnut every morning, and pout if it's sold out.

What Donut Are You?

Farewell...



a talented and beautiful gal has left us forever..when i learnt of her death..i was realli realli in shock...cos i was watching a ch 8 show when the words scrolled up on the sides announcing that she din make it....i din even read the words until my dad said it out.."xu wei lun si le"...so direct that it totallie caught me off guard...it's reallie sad and i reallie cannot express the impact of how this news affected me...it has been 2 days since she passed away..but i can't get it out of my head...everywhere i go, i think of it...i hear abt it on scv news...i reallie tot she will make it..believing that it is not as serious as the news depicted...but...
i cannot believe she is gone..vanished...from this earth..it's reallie heart wrenching...she had so much dreams, she had a bright future...her career was blooming...it happened so sudden...it's reallie so sad that i cannot find a word to describe...
sometimes i can't even bear to look at her photos...the last time i saw her...she was still appearing on tv/promoting her shows then...she's gone...*still living in disbelief*
i think to most ppl..it's no big deal...but to me...the impact is so big...so big...that i dunno why? it's not like i particularly liked her...but she is definitely one of the few tw actresses that i dun mind...hai~ cannot express my grief...even tho i typed it out...sighz...

NEW HAIR...

ladies and gentleman...my new hairstyle......after 5-6 years of looking the same!!!

(freshly cut hair...less than 1 hour old~~)

actuallie not much diff..just tt i cut my fringe...but well..at first when the person cut my fringe off..i was like "OMG I REGRET!" as he cut and trim..i was still not used to it...but once he removed the piece of cloth covering me..i was like.."hey it's not that bad..." hee...so anywayz..there u have it...my "biggest" chg in hairstyle for a long long time...next time i do anything...it will be PERMING!! heee..

now i look at myself..and i am slowly slowly getting used to it le..just that i think that hair stylist could have cut more of the fringe..looks a bit thin..zzz...=p but since i am not a pro..i shan't complain so much le...

now the problem comes..."should i go dye it to rainie yang's colour?" hee

wanna go overseas?

for a more detailed account of my bkk trip, pls see :
http://siete-7.blogspot.com/

hee...i wish i can go on a trip again..suddenly have a craving to go Australia..maybe cos i was watching Australian Open and got a small section, they showed Australia...suddenly crave to be in those kind of very relaxing countries...no stress..just sit back n relax...

4 years ago

(once again, copied from the other blog shared w my frenz...=P)


(Taken in Bangkok)
VS

(4 years ago... )

i swear we din plan this...but HOW QIAO IS THAT?? that it's the same 3 of us doing the same pose...?? i was kinda freaked out when i found out @ ee's house that time..so qiao lo?!? same 3 ppl..?! shesh...or maybe onli 3 of us are silly enough to attempt this "pose"? anywayz..i think the person who chged the most has to be bao~...i looked like i din chg AT ALL -.- i dun like tt kinda feeling... grrrrr...

enough is enough...i dun wanna live in the past anymoreeeeeeeeeeeeee!

sometimes i wish i can give myself two tight slaps and wake myself up...memories of the past always haunts me...and i always have the tot of "if only..." and "wad if..."
if i could turn back time, there'll be lotsa things i would nv do...i keep thinking and thinking of times i had in the past...but shldn't i move on and look TOWARDS the future...??

Bangkok trip

Bangkok trip

hehe...actuallie i wanted to post a long entry on this trip one..but i have been back for 2 weeks plus..lost the "feeling" to write le..hahah...in short, the trip was pretty okie..lotsa shopping to do...but think we not good at bargaining...din get much bargains..but the things alr quite cheap lah...shoes at 199 baht..equivalent to 8 sing..=\ i bought a cute flip flops at 50 baht = 2 sing..*faintz* haha..but somehow i din get much dangling earrings...more of studs...all in all, bought 4 heels, 3 slippers, 4 skirts, 3 bags, 2 dresses, 1 top, zillion accessories..keke...and the thais love HELLO KITTY!! omg...i also cannot resist and bought some kitty things..haha..


my zhan li ping...hehehe...still got others not included...those are the big pieces..


on the river cruise....


somewhere outside the temple of dawn...


part of the temple of dawn...


reclining buddha...VERY VERY BIG ONE..the amazing race came here b4..where they have to put coins in every pot...if anyone rems....


out first meal..at MBK...the place quite nice but the food so so..a bit like marche style..but also like food court...haha..that was the meal i reallie reallie appreciate coke...after walking for so long under the sun, the coke was heavenly!


SUPER CUTE AND B-E-A-U-TIFUL corner of hello kitty..i wish i bought one....*envious of ee*


look how scared we are of ppl breaking in in the middle of the night...=P


the x'mas deco outside world trade centre...very nice lo...bangkok's x'mas deco all very nice and more creative..can see there was effort put in...then u see orchard road..............................


DUNKIN DONUTS!! I WISHED I HAD MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...shesh..why din i buy more!!??


super satisfied shoppers?? hehe...i love the hello kitty bag tho i dun dare to use in singapore..hohoho


Bye Bangkok~~~

i think i will go back again...tho recently got bombing...=\ but the things there reallie very cheap, even their normal things in watsons, also cheaper
make me so tempted to buy A LOT of things back..hahaha...
btw...this is the first time i took a budget airline...no turbulence, no bad experience...in fact, quite steady...but i think for longer journeys i would still prefer to take normal airlines...well...that's about it now...hope to have more trips overseas with frenz...i wanna go taiwan with frenz..sure can shop shop shop toooooo~ hehehe

contradiction

my life is always in a conflict..on the one hand, i like new things and surprises...new things include mechandise and "boyfrenz"...i mean, i am those kinda person who xi xing yan jiu easily...once i get sth new, i wun like my old items..or when i managed to get that particular thing, i lose interest in it..
but strangely, i always hang out w the same few frenz i had since sec and jc..and i dun like to know new ppl...i dun like to start the whole process of getting to know someone all over again..which is why since uni, most of the ppl i know are just acquaintances...sad but true...i find it hard to find real close frenz from uni..but somehow other ppl can do tat..haha..
i can't find the energy to ying4 zhou2 my colleagues...it feels so fake..and i seriously dun like one of them...she gets on my nerves and seriously..kinda bitchy..bleahz~ annoying person..
i also keep repeating the same things i do everday...wake up, go work, come home, eat dinner, watch my tv, bathe and go to sleep..weekend go out, either ktv, play mahjong, play minimise, play maple, watch tv...omg...the more i type the more no life i feel..haha..but i think most part is just becos i dun dare to step out of my comfort zone..but..i am so "lazy" to do anything abt it...hai~

unpredictable....
just received news that my uncle is in hospital now..he suddenly had a heart attack ytd night and on his way to the hospital, he totallie collapsed and went unconscious..until now...still haven wake at all..kinda scary..and very sudden...
life is so unpredictable...................

pissed...upset...sad...lost...confused...

pissed...upset...sad...lost...confused...
hmm..recently in a bad mood..dunno is it due to the monthly thingy or wad..but little little things can get me pissed..somehow i feel that it's more of a pent up anger that has accumulated since long long time ago..whenever things dun go my way or wad i just kept it bottled up and dun tell others...think it's kinda unhealthy..must try to talk to ppl more..feel like i am cooped up in a small little world of my own..but..tho i like small talks..i dun actuallie say the things that truely truely bothered me..=\ hai..
just now i got angry over silly things like my frenz commenting on my room being so messy and asking me to take down my zaizai poster(-.-)..i mean, wad i put up on my room is my freedom? the way they said it..like it's so disgusting to do that..? why can't they understand that it's reallie sth i like? why shld i take it down just becos they dun like him or sth? SO RIDICULOUS..i mean it's like reallie common to joke about it..in the past i would prob laugh along with it..but just now..i just totallie cannot stand the way they joked about it..reallie wanna just scream out "if it's that 'disgusting' then dun come..i din ask u to come~" there's a diff btw joking tone and the 'disgusted' and xian2 qi4 kinda tone...
i am getting so temperamental nowadays that it scares me sometimes..the frequency of me cursing and swearing under my breath is getting more and more..reallie not a good sign..dunno wad's wrongggg...>_< on thurs nite, i got REALLIE pissed when bao told me she dun wan to go vivocity when i alr set my mind on taking fc leave to go..i mean she was the one who got me all excited about it..aiya...it might seem minor..but JUST PISSED..sometimes she can reallie get on my nerves unknowingly and partly it's my fault cos i dun tell her about it..but still..tt doesn't stop me from getting angry..
sometimes, i feel so sad..so lost..so confused...like i totallie dunno wad's the meaning of life..wad's the purpose of me going to work everyday, wad's the purpose of me as a being?? sighz..

recently..quite bored..like do wad also no energy...ytd went to watch the prestige but just b4 the show started..starting getting into those sian sian mood...in the end din reallie enjoy the show..tho i think the show is actuallie quite nice..hai~ i sit until my knees so sore...so xin ku..=( i think my joints are getting olderrrrrr...
but recently i have found my passion for maple again..started to play maple more..even on weekdays...training a new char..xbowman..=P so tempted to go and buy the limited edition maple card..31.50...hmmm...shld i get the chief bandit or mage? hehe...both looks very nice...prob can tell i am just crapping..cos i feel like blogging..yet i can't find a topic to talk abt..so aimlessss now...boo hoo( sry ee, i like to be a copycat!...hee)..basically this entry can be ignored -.-

(this post is actuallie copied from the other blog i share with my frenz cos i am lazy to type all over again..=P)
went drinking w colleagues on wed~~~
the whole idea was to get together for a farewell party for one of my colleague..i think we spent the whole night out, from 530 to 11+ and i reached home at 12+ ...>.<
anywayz... we went attica and then to gotham penthouse..i din reallie like the music there...but after 3 drinks..nothing reallie matters..lol..esp when i downed the first 2 so fast..omg..by the time i reached my 5th..i alr half gone..giggling at stupid things..only my other colleague had as much as me..=P the two of us like mad women..haha..but it was a comical scene..tho..now that i think of it..quite throw face.hahaha..but i think it's reallie fun to do this once in awhile..hee..
by my 4th drink i reallie quite dizzy le...but i think the drinks i had the alcohol content still ok leh..hehe..reallie doubting my "jiu liang" now..when i went toilet i can reallie feel the world spinning...after i went home..i had the feeling to puke..but din..and once in awhile i will giggle to myself on my bed...SO WEIRD...LOL...the next morning wake up..reallie wanna die..had a burning sensation in my stomach and feel like puking..>_< very horrible..that reallie made me think twice about drinking too much or too fast next time..

as for the ntu recruitment drive on thurs..sigh...=( no one interested in tax...NO ONE...these students reallie have a lot of misconceptions..they think only if they go audit then they can do CPA..which is not true! duno lehz..i think they dunno wad they are getting themselves into when they insist on going audit..=P but that's my personal opinion..maybe some ppl reallie enjoy their work...like yanzhen's workaholic snr..?hehe oh well..tt's abt it..

The Departed.....(do not read if you dun like spoilers)
ARGH...wad a HORRIBLE..SUPER CANNOT MAKE IT MOVIE???? to think the newspapers was saying it's the best adapted movie ...?!like wad the fuck?!(pardon moi language...after watching the show i tend to wanna swear)
well..firstly, the starting is like so brief...like one scene jumps to the next...no connection..-.- and i finally know why it's rated M18?? there's so many "fuck" here and "fuck" there...no way to censor the word out..hahhaa..ok..i accept that that might reallie be the way of speaking..but it's reallie quite irritating when there's like 3 "fuck" in 1 short sentence..-.-
the scenes when leo dicap was killed..it's quite funny instead of feeling sad for him...perhaps it's cos i alr know he will die..so no element of surprise? and no sympathy for him..i reallie lol when the guy shot the black guy..i mean like...wad's the point?!?!?! they die like so sudden...it's more comical than anyting...hahhaa..worse is when matt damon kills that guy as well...o.O like..hello???? it's so cold blooded...like wad my fren says...in the hk version, towards the end, can see that andy lau wants to be a good guy..but in this version, matt damon din show any sign of remorse or wad...everything he did is for his own sake...kinda selfish blah blah..disgusted...and i feel the focus is more on matt damon...somehow i feel...leo dicap's char..didn't shine in this movie...=/
there was the scene at leo's funeral..they were firing and there's this guy behind matt damon that got shocked by it..and he still secretly smiled to himself..hhaahaha..that's the ultimate laughing point! after tat...mark wahlberg..haha..went to kill matt damon..matt damon was like, "ok" like it's ok to kill me..and mark wahlberg reallie shot him..BUT that scene is like super funny! the last part still got a rat on the window there..OMG..I think ee and i laugh the loudest in the cinema ba! SO COMICAL LAH...but it totallie dun have the feel of the hk version...the hk version one is better lah..perhaps one reason is cos i watched it alr..so i alr know how the story will go..but reallie..if u din watch the hk version..u wun get wad's happening..and besides that.. think the sound effect team sux to the core la..the music, sometimes SUPER loud..then suddenly goes quiet or softens for the char to talk..but it's just so OFF..and choice of music sux too...gets kinda irritating most of the time! zzz ..horrible show!! i wanna watch THE PRESTIGE..even if the story sux, i still can feast my eyes with christian bale and hugh jackman~~!

recently..keep meeting up with baoyu they all..especially ee ling, yz, baoyu cos the 4 of us live very near one another..hehe...always have mahjong sessions and always play this game called minimise...hoho...it's like last time even tho we live so near we also dun meet up much..but after all of us started work, i think we reallie can appreciate how xin fu it is to meet up with frenz...so we just keep meeting and meeting...reallie become a weekly affair liao..haha...
dunno is it becos of them...i keep having the crave to sing!i wanna go ktv so badly~! i also wanna just hang out at someone's house and play game, talk crap..hehe...so looking forward to x'mas celebration/present exchange/count down..hee but it's like 2 more months?!? lol..we plan so far ahead le...next yr going to phantom of the opera! ok...actuallie recently very unhappie at work..cos of the ppl there..but i am so lazy to write abt it..cos thinking of it makes me so sianz..:( boo hoo...working sux (saying this for the Nth time...)

since i have time...i shall upload some photossss

hehe..can tell that i am very free..so long nv stay home all day liaoz...so happie to have some time to myself...anywayz just some pics from JY's farewell "party"...

We are a great combi for Kranium~ hahaa


@ marina steamboat...posing...notice a certain person showing off her back? hahaa


More pics @ marina...


eeeeeeeeeeeeee...so niang...-.-


the photographer is sick..so she can't have ice cream...awwwww..


a rare combi of faces..=P


I was supposed to share the red wine with Ee and JY but in the end..i still stuck to good o' beer~


Cheers!! =) Shiyuan's beer looks like ribena!

Ulcer + headache attack!

since monday i have been having headache ..dunno is it a psychological thing cos i have this super pain ulcer near my wisdom tooth..SUPER pain lo!..so pain that it affects my brain..*talking rubbish* but reallie...very miserable at work...i can't even eat or talk properly...suffering in silence...hai~

actuallie ytd i was kinda upset..felt so outcasted @ work...it's like we had this "connect session" for the whole dept..so after that we went to for receiption..then i dunno lehz..dunno it's unintentionally or wad...my colleagues will stick together..like at first i was walking with one of them..and she spotted the rest at the back, she din even tell me then she just went over to join them..and left me alone there..like so off lo..so i also walked over lah..but the feeling is like..they dun reallie care whether i got join them anot..like i am not part of the grp ( but technically we are always together in that grp la)..hai~ very sad..then nvm..i went to look for some of the A2s i will be sitting with during DnD..but they also like talk among themselves..depressing..this is wad will happen at the DnD? i have to entertain myself throughout that night? T_T such a depressing tot..hai~after that..i went back to join my fellow A1s..then realise they are talking abt the dance pract they will be going later in the day ..then they started talking about the dance instructors etc...i was totallie blur..and sometimes when they leave and rejoin the grp, they will form a circle and i will be out of it...like so mean lo...>_< maybe i reallie dun have enough presence..it's like whether i am there anot, they can't even feel it...feel so neglected..so i went home with a horrible mood...wallowing in self pity..hai~
then this morning..i decided to pon work for the first time...partly cos the ulcer is reallie excruciatingly pain and secondly i dun reallie feel like seeing my colleagues...especially one of them...i somehow feel that she dun like me lo..if given a choice, maybe she rather go lunch alone than eat alone with me that kinda thing..i rem that time after gym, she told me she was going somewhere else..but who knows..while walking to the platform at dhoby ghaut, i saw her in front on the travelator..she lied so she dun have to go home with me~ such a bitch~ it pisses me off just thinking about it..

somehow i always feel that i dun leave an impact in ppl's lives, with or without me will not make much of a diff to ppl..maybe i just have this face that can be easily forgotten..i dunno..or just no strong personality i guess...=\ sadz~

updatesssss...

woohoo..my first crush in a long while..but it's very obvious it's a crush cos i nv talk to him b4...kekeke..
he is a senior in my office..haha..just feel tt he is very zai in his work..yet has a good sense of humour (eavesdropped when he was chatting with his colleagues)...lol..but he is married and with kids..hahaha..prob ard 30 ba..but among all the guys here..he is the only one that is reallie the more "interesting" one..haha..as for the guy that came in the same time as me..i no longer find him good looking..he's just a tall average looking person now..altho my fren thinks he's super cute..-.-"

next week is my DnD at Swiss hotel..=\ i am not performing! but 7 out of 9 of the A1s in my dept is dancing...haha..they are overly enthu abt it..siao ginas...i dun like dancing..i will look like some piggy trying to twist and turn...lol..left with 7 days and no dress to wear..*yawns* i think i shall just go in office wear -.-

talked to jingyi on msn last night...feel so tempted to go uk find her in dec/jan..hai~but i think of the air ticket...heart pain..somemore in winter..uk so cold..=\ but one good thing is can wear boots like nobody's biz..i know i know..in singapore also can..but..it's just so aa to me..like hello? 30+ degree and..everyone is in sandals/flip flops...then someone so extra in boots...? dun think so~ aiya..i just wanna hurry clear my leave this year lehz...wait next yr peak then so hard to get approval for leave -.-! and i reallie feel like going overseas...i wanna go japan or maybe go taiwan again..but with frenz this time..hehe...sighz~ dunno how lehz...anyone has any suggestions? hehe..

ytd...went new york new york with the sngs gals..hehe..ade and i treat them...but actuallie ok la..in the end abt 20+ each...so me n ade ard 60+ each...still alright...but they reallie think we print money..lol..1599 very easy to use up...esp on trasport and food..sigh~ i wish for the increment faster...T_T such a underpaid job..sianz...

i have decided to do sth abt the ever bulging tummy..time to use my mum's osim machine...keke..weekends go jogging/swimming and weekday go gym!! lol...wad's the chances of that getting carried out i reallie wonder...hehe

btw..i am typing all these in office...why? cos snrs on leave, hai~ lotsa outstanding things..=\ super low prooductivity today..just waiting for time to pass ...sianz...

wahaha...SOOOOO long no blog...almost forgot i got this blog liaoz...hai~~ i have worked for 2 months ++ liao..and starting to get the hang of things...wah..starting is reallie very bad lo...every little thing do wrongly and my snr will not hesitate to "nag" me...starting i reallie cannot stand her..but now...i think as we get to work more often..she seems to treat me better liaoz...=P phew..if not so stressed...
reallie nothing much to update abt...life is now a cycle of waking up, going to work, go home, watch tv, sleep..no social life manz~ hai~...but at least it's still better than my frenz in audit..they are reallie very cham..totallie no life at all...work from 830 to 12?!?!? omg..how to hang out w frenz after work lidat? some of them when on job, they dun even have internet...totallie cut off from the world sia..=\
sighz..met up w some of my uni frenz on thurs..hearing them talk abt their job..they seem pretty satisfied w their jobs..then when asked of wad my job is abt..i totallie got no idea how to tell them..it's like...the work i do...so brainless...-.- say alr also throw face...but actually the stress from meeting the datelines is quite big actuallie..dun think they understand..and made my job sound like so simple and relaxing...relaxing my foot -.- then they were talking abt chging job after a few years...seriously..i dun reallie intend to ...i am pretty happie w where i am now..tho it's not the greatest job nor do i have the greatest employer..but i think it's not too bad an employer lo..so...i reallie feel like staying there...there's a lot of ppl working there and it's their first job..some are like mgrs liaoz...hmmm...dunno lehz..=\ no matter where i go..i feel i can't find the perfect job tt i will enjoy..so........hai~ duno lah..
ya..i know this post has totallie no content..but i just feel like typing..lol..aiya..when i have better things to update then blog again ba =.=

1st month of work

wah...it's only been one month but i feel like i have been working there forever!!
working life..is reallie very horrible..u squeeze in the morning train, during lunch u squeeze with the crowd..chopping seats with packets of tissue papers..and i used to despise such ppl..now i fully understand why they have to resort to that..it's reallie freaking crowded..go home squeeze w the going home crowd..can u imagine..for the rest of ur life..it's gonna be like this?? it's only when u start work that u fully appreciate and thank God for the existence of public holidays...T.T *looking forward to National Day*
luckily these few days..i finally got things to do...time passes very fast when u have things to do...hahaha..apparently a lot of ppl noticed tt i was very free during a period of time..my colleague even suspects that my snr and coach forgot abt my existence..>_< haha..but tt's last time..now..once in awhile u see ppl coming to my desk..asking me to do things..but i prefer having things to do..at least u feel more useful..and feels more enriching..haha..
hai~ the snr i have been assigned to...well...maybe it's cos we are not tt close yet..just feel that there's a gen gap btw us..-.- i feel like i am in sch..tcha ask me to do things..i cannot say no those kind..maybe cos of the diff in our ranks..dunno leh..very hard to describe wad exactly it is like to work w her...she can be quite demanding..and she always wants things done HER way..-.- a bit no flexibility lo...=X sianz..and i somehow have a feeling tt someone from the same batch as me..dun reallie like me?? She can like talk to anyone except me..and she dun like to walk beside me..if the others are in pairs alr..she will rather walk behind me..so weird..=.= maybe i think too much lah..
and today's the first time i talked to this guy from the same batch as me...he's from the same jc as tammy..zzz..but i think he is most prob attached..no chance le..hahaha..sianz..my office alr limited guys..and all the guys there are either too old, married or attached..wad is this man?! =.=~ it's time i start visiting sdu...kekeke...
i cannot wait for one yr to pass so that new associates will come in~!! i dun wanna be the lowest form of life there..T_T even the vacational trainees are gone..all the stupid admin things will be pushed to us..hai~ ming ku ah...

at work..

this is the 9th day i am working here..wah..super sian..i got nothing to do..zzz
and until now also haven reallie get to know the ppl here..yawnz..hope fully starting from next week will have more things to do ..if not i reallie think i will start decomposing..T_T

first week of work...

sian~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 3 and a half days of training...reallie very boring..i wish i can use another word to express the true "sian-ness" of it...sigh...we went up to our seats on thurs afternoon..got nothing to do and i dun have my comp pw..can only stare into space..still not very close to my fellow colleagues who went in w me..there's altogether 6 of us..out of the 6 only got 1 guy..lol..well..it's like reallie bad cos 2 of them are from china..1 is a malay, the other ger is..i dunno...she seems very dao..-.- and she is one yr older than me..actuallie the guy is kinda good looking but too bad..he's attached...keke..so..on friday i also spent the whole day doing nothing..except writing an input sheet which seriously could have been done in 20 mins..i took 1 hour plus to do it cos i dunno wad else to do after tt..so i just took my time somemore we dun have to charge our time till 15 july..so wadever we do now is kinda unreflected..i think this charging time is so ridiculous..u are supposed to charge the hours u spent on the client's case on him..and everyday is 8 hours chargeable time..it's like..up to us to fill in so who reallie knows how much time i spent on the case? maybe i spent only 5 hours on it but i still charge 7 hours?? no logic lehz..maybe as i go along i will understand it more ba...but the first week was reallie like a nightmare lo..u can reallie appreciate why ppl always say it's so fortunate to be a student..especially uni student can? maybe only me but my uni days quite slack sia..(cos i dun study much till exams) haha..aiya...hopefully things will get better? seniors say tt during peak hours, they go home at 11 plus 12 plus..so next yr i will be mentally prepared for tt...in the mean time, for the sake of my salary..i must hang in there...T_T

back..starting work...world cup..T.T

without realising..i've been back from taiwan for 1 week plus le...right after i come back..i went to baoyu's house to watch world cup overnight liao..so soccer crazy..can't believe myself..haha..anywayz that's the day czech lost to ghana -.-" sad case..since i came home..i think i spent most of my time watching world cup and playing maple..1 week plus..sounds very short but to me i felt like i haven been back for ages..seriously..i like being in singapore more..haha...even though taiwan has its fun stuffs..anyway the main pt of this post is to whine abt starting work soon!!! omg..i cannot imagine life once i start work..even shopping for working stuffs sux..looking at all the bags, suits, working clothes..disgusted -.-~ i wanna shop for normal go out clothes..but i think not much chance to wear them le..o.o cos knowing me..i would prob spend my time slacking at home during weekends...weekdays sure work till wanna drop liao...no energy to go out play..haha..
the sian thing is i am starting work the earliest among my frenz going to acct firms..very sian leh..somemore i am a business student..will i be an outcast there??? *scared* i think the first day is the worst...hopefully after that things will be ok...=\ *keeps my fingers crossed*
i am feeling very sian now..mainly becos i can't watch world cup...honestly din know i can be such a soccer fanatic..but so far world cup results haven been going my way..poor spain is out..italy is in by PURE luck and boring soccer of defence..brazil is in as expected which is so boring >_<" and deco is gonna miss the match against england..if portugal is not careful..they just might lose it...SOBZ...horrible refereeing as usual..i mean i am not those pro that reallie understand the game..i am just watching for the thrill of watching players attack..so italy style of playing..reallie isn't my cup of tea..and watching the replay from the australia and italy match..everyone will know that the penalty wasn't even supposed to happen.stupid idiot blind gullible referee..hai~ maybe u reallie need more than skills to win in world cup ba..
anywayz recently i have been down on my luck..maybe i am exaggerating abit..but reallie quite unlucky..(for maplers only) i scroll my deadly fin and 4 out of 5 failed..how unlucky can u get?!? and ytd while waiting for the spain and france match, i went to heat up the pizza..and i can actuallie drop the WHOLE BIG BEAUTIFUL pizza on the floor..right next to the newspaper my dog does its business on..T_T sad case...first sign of bad luck and that spain will lose...sigh~ and they reallie lose..sad sad sad..today my dad's car got banged by some idiot loser who ran off after banging..sad case la..dunno who the culprit is..tho we roughly guessed it was the old uncle and aunties that were the only other group at the temple..grrrrrrr..DAM IDIOTS..
lucky the dent isn't those super deep in kind..but it's still quite obvious and it's a new car leh! wtf lo..poor dad...and my auntie has to be ard to continue adding salt and vinegar..how i wish i can staple her mouth -.-!!!! horrible horrible person..dunno when to say the right things de lehz...live till so old le still so dumb..-.- i am not being disrespectful ok..if u know her..u will agree with me totallie..at least my sis and i alr condemn her...(she has to tag along to taiwan too) so off..and even suggested sharing room with my sis and i..?! no way will i share room w her -.- i have learnt my lesson...hard..i can't imagine non stop yakking -.-
zzz...i am quite lazy to talk abt the taiwan trip..all i can say is the first few days very sian cos it was raining like...non stop?? even take photos also take w the umbrellas..in the end make everyone's mood so sian sian..also no mood to shop ard..somemore the night mkt like pasar malem..u can't try on..then very luan..totallie spoil the mood of shopping..think if wanna go taiwan...still better to go w frenz..cos u will shop for the same things..actuallie i think wu fen pu got a lot of things to buy de..but no trying and their layout very messy...makes u feel so confused..and just no mood to shop la..i think i am still more of the shopping centre person?? got air con, organized layout, fitting rooms, no need to bargain like siao..my philosophy for buying is quite simple..if the price is worth the item just buy..i dun like to bargain for so long..very ma fan..i like hassle free shopping~~but lidat i am destined not to find good bargains lo..haha..contradicting yes i know..but tt's just women..they always contradict themselves..keke..
i think i have side track a lot..
hmm...monday starting work le..but i still dun have a working bag...hmmm...wad to do leh...and after start working dunno got time to maple anot..but judging from ks and ade..seems like will have time lah..hehe...weekends i guess..sian..why must i start work soooooooooooooooooooooo early??????

photos photos..

hmm...the long awaited(?) photos..decided to upload some first...still got baoyu's cam's photos...but her laptop just crashed..-.- gotta wait le...
some of the photos we took ...


First day on the street..walking to 女人街..


Our navigator and his gf...lol~ =P


Watched the TVB drama serial b4? it's called ICAC (in chinese)


Soccer fever burns~


Two satisfied customers..=D


On the tram to Lan Kwai Fong


I forgot where is this ...o.o i think is the exhibition and convention centre


at the temple..somewhere o.o


3rd day...to disneyland~~~


At disney's entrance =D


On the carousel~~~ weeeeeeeeeeee...


Snow White..look like the cartoon anot?? haha =P


With two of the ppl working at the shop~ i think we took this for their uniform..but cannot reallie see...o.o


At the airport..

actuallie we took a lot lah..but to find one that i look ok in..very hard..lol..so have limited choices...hehe..in the meantime..shall wait for baoyu's photos...>.< tml going taiwan le...not very excited..i wanna stay home watch shows and world cup! -.- sigh~

sth else that happened to me ...i know my results le .....-.- 2nd lower...wad do i expect right? with that amount of effort i put in..get 2nd lower shld be happie le..oh well..=X