Spring cleaning!!!

it's the time of the year to de-clutter...i swear, i reallie have no idea WHY i have so much things!! i remember throwing TONS of things when i moved from Hougang to SK...some of which i regretted throwing...like the millions of "angel mortal" letters...correspondences with frenz since pri sch...hai~ *heart pain*...nonetheless, after 5 years plus, the amount of things i have collected hv reached an alarming state that i decided it's time to say good bye to some of them forever...

first thing i did today was to re-paint my room...i always tot painting was fun...fun my arse! -.- after like 1 minute, my arm was aching...T_T oh...agony~ hahaha...but it was actuallie still rather fun lahz...minus the arm aching part...cos i love "drawing" and painting seems to fall under my definition of "drawing" ...kekeke...well...i din paint my WHOLE room per se, i just did 2 walls...the ones i face and back face when i sleep...haha...the wall which i face, used to have 3 posters...all of zai2...i said good bye to them on one fateful night(last sunday night to be exact) when i decided i have outgrown this "idol-pasted-on-my-wall" thing... (altho i was remotely tempted to put up a Gerrard adidas newspaper advert but decided against it in the end...) just fyi, i still have one more zai2 poster on the right wall...simply cos i forgot to take it down together w the other 3 + the fact tt i am plain lazy to paint that wall since i have to remove abt 20 ornaments and another 10,000 cds and soft toys on the shelf b4 i can embark on this tedious task...so wad can i say? i am just a lazy brat...hehe...

Colour of the wall i face when i am on my bed~

Painting the 2 walls, took up my whole afternoon, when i finished, it was abt 2pm...and the "spring cleaning" hasn't even began yet! honestly, i have so much things, i dunno where to begin! so i started w the nearest drawer...looking thr all the things took me a long time cos as i looked thr them, i saw a lot of things that brought back fond memories...i had this whole box full of letters from a sec sch fren i have known since sec 1...it's a bit sad now tat i nv keep in contact w her...i think the last time i saw her was when she came back from the US during her holidays and we went Sakae at Kovan Mall...afterwhich, we just sorta...took longer n longer to reply each other until one day, she din reply me anymore...ahhh...it's reallie sad thinking of it this way but actuallie i still see her on msn, so we do talk once in a (long) while...

then i saw the comics, the obsession of my jc life...hahaha...

for those who dunno, it's hana yori dango aka liu xing hua yuan...hahhaha...that has got to be my most crazee period of "idol-chasing"...(i did crazee things like go j8, queue up like mad just to shake hands w F4, went to their concert...went to airport to see if we can catch them when they arrive...silly things like that...)...anw, i have the whole set of the comics...except for book 16 and 21...hahaha...i have gone to the extent of buying the whole set -.- but it's worth it since i still do read them once in awhile...(recently, i have an urge to buy the whole set of 偷偷爱着你 aka 花样少男少女...cos i just watched the tw drama due to strong recommendations by ade, i was very reluctant...cos i dun like wu zun...but after watching the show, i think i can understand why ppl will like him...anw i have started reading the online comic...but it's not fit properly into window size so i have to scroll up and left...very ma fan...buying the whole manga means i can read comfortably!!)

anw, back on topic, so there i was sorting out all my stuffs...do u know how much F4 stuffs i dug out?how much westlife stuffs i collected?how much money did i spend on all these crap?!?!?! =.= *dump* i still kept some of my zai2 things and nicky's posters (i am a softie, i just can't throw them lidat!) i forgot to take a photo of all the things i collected b4 i packed them into the bags...i filled 2 big bags...plainly on posters, articles, newspapers clippings...madness.

then i saw the neoprints i took last time...the main bulk came in sec sch where we had a neoprint machine just a few steps away from our bus-stop...my gosh...we nearly went there daily to take neoprints, bet the boss is damn happie to see us everyday~ hahaha

if i had the time, i would reallie love to take pics of the neoprints one by one to narrate when and why each of the neoprints were taken...we took neoprints for the strangest reasons...i rem xianna and i went to take one cos we din get chosen for some Singa thingy ...or the time when we finished our NAPHA and decided to take one as proof that we survived =) this is how bo liao we are...hahaha...looking at them reallie brought back such wonderful memories...i missed them so much...i have been feeling rather nostalgic recently (as u can see from my previous posts)...and i looked at the photos, i think i look damn ugly in tj -.- even in ny, i din look that bad lehz...must be the place =.= hahaha...

the mess...every inch of my room is covered w something =\

after abt 2 hours of SERIOUS sorting out my things, i gave in and started to try and chuck them into different drawers instead...nonetheless, after a fine SEVEN hours later, this is how my room roughly looks like (still gotta tidy a bit b4 chu xi...)

There was a sense of satisfaction that i finally cleared up the pile of things on my table...esp when i saw the 2 walls, i am so happy, cos they look so new and clean~!!!

as a result of all these, i have spent my whole sunday clearing my room...ie my weekend has gone by! =(

i wanna have more time to watch my dramas and read my comics, play my games ...gimme back my time =(

hai~ jy le...3 more days to cny~ =D looking forward to my chu xi dinner *yum*

那是我们都回不去的从前。。。

好想找回学生时的感觉。。。

学生时期的恋爱，有点甜，有点轻涩。。。

学生时期的纯真和无心机的日子。。。

想念学生时期，过地无忧无虑。。。

我好后悔。。。没有更好地把握我当学生的日子。。。没有“用力”地活过。。。

i feel like changing my hair...cut it short?dye it purple?dye it red? hmmm...suggestions anyone? my fren said black is uncommon nowadays...but i am craving for some change...=\

wish upon a star...

i wish i wish... to have my own lcd tv on my bedroom wall, along w a scv set and a connecting cable to connect my lappie w the lcd...

i wish i wish...to take a long break from work just to laze around at home and watch my endless supply of dramas, movies and variety shows...

i wish i wish...to have a long holiday where i dun have to do anything but tour around europe and enjoy the beautiful sights and sounds...

i wish i wish...to finally find the determination to lose the weight i ought to have lost since sec 3...

i wish i wish... one day i can find the meaning in life...

i wish i wish......

Went to watch Le Grand Chef with the SK/Hougang kakis...i cried for half the show...tears just flowed like they have a life of their own...i can't control them, neither do i wan to actuallie...the only thing is when the lights are up, i will look like shit...i nv liked to cry in "public" which is one of the reasons why sometimes i find that i can only truly enjoy a movie when i am in the comfort of my own home, away from public eyes...but today, i din hold back at all ...i am glad i didn't anywayz...that made me enjoy the show a lot a lot...

actuallie today, i nearly cried in office...over a very insignificant thing...i was without a lunch partner...tt's all...sounds like so small thing, why need to cry?

i also dunno lehz...i tot i was supposed to do lunch duty so i wait n wait n wait for yip to call me to go buy lunch or sth...cos i tot she's prob bz so i wait for her to call me instead but ard 12.05, i realised the office very empty, only got jiahui left...then i saw ade coming back from somewhere...so i asked her i am doing duty today right? but she then informed me that it's sy and jh doing cos yip and ade switched w them...but ytd ade told me she is switching w me cos ytd she did for me when i was on mc! so obviously i went along w the idea tt today i will be doing her duty...fine...nvm...i ask ky if she lunching out, then she told me she alr got someone to buy back for her thinking that i wasn't available for lunch since she asked me earlier at 10plus....shit...the twist of things...
the point when ky told me she got mf to buy her lunch alr, i nearly burst out crying...i dunno wad happened...just a sudden thing...i just feel so 委屈...i feel very tired of ade's nonchalant attitude...sometimes i reallie cannot take it...pls have the courtesy to tell me b4hand that there's a change in plans...it's freaking frustrating...but luckily, in the end, one of the bankers asked me to go lunch w 2 of them instead of da paoing...so i did...no other choices reallie...

Since i am in a very bloggish mood, i shall continue to blog abt the "farewell" dinner we had with JY @ Ichiban Boshi at esplanade...

actuallie it's more of just the photos...cos i realised we din talk much, just munch munch munch...hahha....


YZ hates me T_T

She hates me not =P

More random photos:




Laid back vs 敷衍的笑 vs act cute =P

natural cute-ness =)

My fave photo cos my eyes looks BIG...hiak hiak hiak...


if only yuan was there too, will be another full 7 photo!


Eh?? wad's this?? everyone caught the hysteria bug!


Normal again~


All she lacks is a halo o.o looks so "innocent"...hehe


Cheers~~~

That day was pretty uneventful...seems like the fact tt JY was gonna leave soon hasn't been drilled into my head at that time yet...=( i wish we did more things that night...

FINALLY i decided to post a little on the xmas celebration we had on sunday, 23 Dec 07...

1st activity: 食字路口

Rules: 7 of us split into 2 groups, 1 team gives the starting food, the other the ending one. Every item that we eat, must be bought from a different stall, 7-11, supermkts can only be visited ONCE, as evidence, a photo of the stall, the food b4 it's eaten, and after it's eaten. The food item must be eaten completely!

Team A: Ms Yuan, Ms JY, Ms YZ and Ms Wyn

Team B: Ms Bobo, Ms Ee and Moi

Team B came up w the starting food...Mee hun Kway(面粉果) and Team A the ending food qing chao (仙草）...u realised both teams all 心机很重...one said mee hun kway, one said qing chao. Both tried to mislead the other team to connect using the given word when they themselves think of the food in the chinese name (if u get wad i am trying to say...) hehe...

Our chain of food: Mee hun Kway(面粉果) --〉果汁 --〉芝麻糊汤丸 --〉wanton with 酱青 --〉qing chao (仙草） [*nods* yes, i shamelessly copied the whole line from ee's post]

First dish...clever ee asked the auntie not to give too much and got us an extra bowl =)

3 of us eat one bowl of mee hun kway like we are hungry ghosts!! i swear we totallie disregard any 形象(if we had any to start with)...i think the ppl ard us prob tot we are poor and hungry students...lol...

SEE HOW CLEAN!!! we must be real hungry...

2nd "dish"...lime juice aka 果汁 =)

3rd dish~which ee totallie cmi...cos it's SWEET...hahaa...the place where we spent the most time as well...=(

prob our WORST dish...cos it's SO disgustingly salty T_T Ee and I drank the soya sauce (ewwwwwwwwwww....) for the ACTUAL footage of us drinking, pls refer to http://www.siete-7.blogspot.com/

just to mention, the uncle was very nice...we asked for 3 wantons even tho he sells yong tau fu and prob has a min amt of pieces to buy...and he charged us very little for it i think...(thankew uncle =P)

(shit i look FAT here) Last dish le......so close yet so far...we were almost finishing when JY called...and we were running halfway while i was still on the phone (waste my phone bill) so in the end obviously we lost (undeservingly ...bleah!) so we went to buy the champagne and log cake as our punishment...

But after our "discussion", we realised they misintepreted mee hun kway as mi fen GAO...(X dehhh! wrong!) hahaha...so we decided to share the cost of the champagne and log cake among all of us in the end =) but the game was reallie fun~! and we took much shorter than planned...but all the running ard made us all very sticky(double ewwww!)

After lying ard and rotting...(see pic as proof), we started our next activity...

2nd activity: Pictionary

(courtesy of KS.. lending me her pictionary which so happens was a gift from bao and wynne's clique...hahaha)

3rd Activity: Present exchange!

The present i brought there was a bag and everyone tot that it was meant for yuan! she even took the bag out to "examine" it...hahahaha...

I bought for the same person as last yr, ms bao~ how coincidental is that? the strange thing? she bought for the same person as last yr too! and yz bought for yuan again! so qiao~hee

before...

the mess...

after...

My x'mas prezzie(s) was...or rather were from ms ee, they comprise of a necklace(which is very her style) and STEVEN GERRARD autobiography which i kept saying i will buy myself but nv got to it...=) thanks~ i love my prezzies including the sock filled with candies that yz got us, the little photo frame yuan got us, the sourvenirs from bao from aussie (SUPER useful little cup that u will see in the photos below, used as our shot glass... hehe) and ee's sourvenirs from TW, a face mask (mine is with a catty), MEOW~

Activity4(a) : taking PHOTOS!

(i swear to God, we took so many photos, i dunno which one to pick so of cos i chose the ones that i look nicer in...well, it's MY blog...lol! =P)

Activity 4(b) :card playing... to pass time till our food arrives...and punishment was gasless hoegarden (duno how to spell)....eeks...

Activity 4(c) : FEASTING! kfc+pizza!!

FOOD~...oh glorious food~~~

The champagne and log cake~ honestly i tot the champagne was alright leh...maybe cos i have a thing for fizzy stuffs... =)

5th activity: 疯狂抽大小... everyone draw 1 card, smallest card drink 1 shot. Draw the joker card, drink 2 shots. [yes, i shamelessly copied from ee's post again! =P]

how many shots did we drink that night? i lost count...but the 5 of us all drank our share to finish the supposedly not very nice champagne...hee

i got the "ultimate" joker card that warrants a 2-shots "punishment"...boy am i lucky or wad??

i am NOT drunk =\

Last Activity: Truth and truth...we ask a qn and everyone has to give an answer at the count of 3...i enjoyed it a lot...lets u know wad ppl think of u as well

Like ee, i had a wonderful wonderful x'mas~ i hope everyone enjoyed themselves too!

This is also the last gathering we had with all 7 of us b4 JY left for UK...well...at least we got to meet up =)

to you, who have managed to read all the way here...i took 2.5 hours sorting the photos, choosing which ones to post, posting them, typing the words, recalling the events...2.5hours! =.= *faint*

I haven been sleeping well recently, always waking up at 3+, 4+ for no good reason...i have been dreaming a lot too...

once i dreamt about a client...calling to ask why i did not send him this this this and why i did not do that that that...i cannot believe i have reached this stage of being hunted by work (when it's alr so minimal)...it's disgusting.

ytd's dream was much more fun and impossible to happen in real life...i dreamt that LFC came to Singapore for a friendly match...i was standing at the "tunnel" where the players walk out...and i actuallie asked torres to take a photo w me in SPANISH! and i still rem he had to squat a lot cos he's like 1.9m and i am...well...u get the gist...then then i saw alonso and asked him to take photo w me in SPANISH too!! i am sry mr/ms camera (wo)man cos i reallie dun rem who was that...the main thing was the players!! hahahah...
tt's not the end of it...we ended up in the food court in wisma...and i was introducing torres and alonso to the hokkien mee (how bizzare!) in, yes u guessed it, spanish again! lol...such a weird dream and the BEST part? gerrard came suddenly to join us...and the 4 of us sat at the table near the lift...omg -.- that's like TOTALLIE weird...but it was a fun dream...hahaha...i was like their tour guide or sth...hahhaa...if this happened in real life, i think i will be too tongue tied, let alone speak fluently in spanish! =.= my God...hahahha

actualie come to think of it...maybe waking up at 350 to watch matches has caused my sleeping habit to alter a little...tt's why i am waking up at 3+, 4+? hee...but anything to watch a match..even sacrificing some slp =)

OMFG! my external hard disk is CORRUPTED! fuck this! GONE...ALL GONE!!! i reformat it in the end lahz...but the heart ache....oh man....>.<

the much anticipated xmas celebrations are over...happy that we managed to meet up but sad that it's over...i had my long awaited break (1 day off) from work...4 days of work free life is... dam shiok! no need to face the ppl at work, no need to look at the things at work, no need to breathe in the horrible office air...i feel freeeeeeeeee...as tho i was back as a student on holidays...but...4 days sorta flew by...and i am back to sq 1...but at least on mon, the atmosphere was christmasy, making everyone hardly in the mood for work...by 230, the office is 2/3 empty...onli our team has 2/3 of us still ard...bloody hell...technically she din restrict us from leaving but neither did she said we could leave...so it's back to boring o' work...sux to the core reallie =.= the more i am at it, the more i dislike it...hai~

today's wed, seems like it shld be a short week but 3 days seem so LONG...i can't wait for the weekend to come again...sad...but the arrival of this weekend would mean the departure of jy...sighz...it seems like just last month when u came back and now u are going back again...so fast...hardly had time to meet up more often...=\ we must go for one last ktv session b4 u go ok??

好久没有静静地坐下来聊天，谈心了。。。感觉好好。。。希望在未来的日子里也能常常这样。。。在忙了一整天后，跟朋友聚聚，聊天说笑。。。

it's fun planning our xmas party...i can't put my finger on wad exactly makes it so fun and exciting...i guess it's just the whole process of coming up w the activities bah...esp planning the shi zhi lu kou...i laugh till i got tears =P...reallie enjoyed tonight...=)

Work...

work has been...as i always said, boring...last time it was boring cos i keep repeating the same things (which every job is prob abt the same actuallie) and now it's boring cos i reallie have NOTHING to do everyday...i know i shldn't bitch abt it...it sounds simple doesn't it? sit there all day till 530, and get paid for doing so? but it makes life very meaningless...i have no purpose in life, nothing to look forward to...no chance to learn new things, no chance to contribute, no chance to SHOW that i am competent of the things we are supposed to do...if i have no chance to prove myself...then where will the pormotions and recognition come from? the change from pwc to here is big...there, i was recognized for the hard work, appreciated for the time i spent on completing my work, rewarded for the effort put in...here...?

i duno...i will be happie to get away w a little increment -.- that sux. i did the math...somehow it just doesn't seem as lucrative to stay here...esp since i din do much...what bonus can they give me? oh God...the more i think of it, the more depressing it sounds...AND i dun like the idea that ppl of the same rank can get diff pay?!?!?! i mean the job scope is the same lehz...=.= honestly...how can a fresh grad get more than someone who has 1 yr working exp alr??? such unfairness disgusts me to the max. alright...enough of whining...i reallie just hope things will improve la...everyday sit there and stare at the screen with NO internet can get very depressing over time...u feel very useless...maybe i shld start looking for a new job.........................................

weee...it's been awhile since i am in the mood to do anything except watch soccer -.- haahhaa...i have given up my maple alr...i just dun find the attraction of it anymore...esp when everyone i know is like taking over my lvl -.- tt feeling sux...take over then take over ok?no need to keep reminding me abt it ............
anywayz, watching Liverpool matches is my latest craze...which i am glad to have...at least there's sth to look forward to...=)

it's been 4 months....and i am still regretting my decision....wad a loser.

i am very happy(happy seems like an understatement) with the 8-nil win~ i reallie hope it's not a one off show but more of a start for their improving form...jia you~!

lalala...recently VERY into football so everyday i visit liverpool's website, every weekend i look forward to their matches...but so often i end up in disappointment...liverpool is not the strongest team i gotta admit...but to deteriorate till this stage? i duno wad happened lehz...one word to rafa benitez...pls get rid of voronin and put on a better striker...at least crouch proved more useful than mr wiggly ponytail...stop being blind and say things like sissoko is playing well? how well is that when u pass the ball to ur opponent or lose possession like 11 out of 10 times?? practise on ur passings...stop the freaking long passes when u know u will lose the ball -.-! common sense reallie...i can onli say they have been lucky...how long can they stay this way...?

ktv session was good today! cos only two ppl...singing almost non stop for 4 hours...keke...sometimes singing lets u release pent up frustrations w work...sing out loud...=) i like singing ^_^V and today's kbox so cheap! only 10 after all the +++ ...hehe...

and during work today i realised that i like guys w nice voice aka not too deep kind...guys w deep voice turns me off =\

i am in love with gerrard...i think i am going mad 0.o hehe

其实世界很大，人很渺小。。。我想去看看世界。。。很想很想
发现很多事自己不能掌控，好想逃离这个世界。。。

recently i have been reading Steven Gerrard's autobiography...actuallie i wasn't very keen on reading...so happen my colleague's husband is a liverpool fan and i mentioned that i like gerrard so ta-dah~ he kindheartedly lent me the book...i tot he just say say only, who knows he reallie lent me...very nice...after i got the book i was quite lazy to read it reallie...cos i was still in the drama frenzy...but after all ppl so nice lend me, i shld at least read it and show my appreciation ba...

well well...steven gerrard...how many of my frenz will actuallie know who is that unless u are a football fan...i dunno wad attracted me to notice him...is it becos he is liverpool's captain? i dunno...but just kan de shun yan bah... watching him play, somehow you feel and see the passion for the game itself through him...of cos i am not a super avid soccer fan...but as my likings for sports change, soccer has become one of my latest craze...i was kinda disappointed that he wasn't appointed england's captain when becks quit...but anywayz back to this book that i am reading...

the book is much more captivating than i possibly can imagine...becos it's so real, so true and honest...and he's actuallie quite humorous (in fact he's very funny, as i read the words, i can picture the scenerio in my head!)...i like ppl who are not afraid of saying their fears...inside, u read abt everything, even his "arrogance" shows...the confidence that so many westerners seem to possess which we asians always seem to lack...perhaps it's just me...i can nv be so confident and say that i think i am the best (but being modest is also a virtue ^^...) another reason why i liked that book is cos it's only till now that i knew that he and michael owen has been frenz since YOUNG...like reallie young, i see their photo i wanna laugh, they look so cute!! michael owen is another player that i reallie like...maybe cos both of them have those goodie goodie person look?? inside there are some photos of his family, his daughters and wife...i particularly liked the one where he has his arm over his little girl...so protective, typical good daddy...very heartwarming photo...

i am very impressed with his passion for football...i mean of cos when he writes, he will say he loves the sports blah blah...sorry for being prejudiced but if it was david beckham who wrote that, i might have some doubt, but coming from gerrard? i believe it with all my heart...sorry...can't help being biased =p why am i writing all this crap, some wonder? becos i think this is truly a book worth reading if you are a fan, even if you are not, i think you will entertained by it as well...after reading the book, i just can't help liking him more and more...=) even when i go to office, all i can think of is get off work on time to go home and read the book! i dun dare to bring the book to and fro cos i scared will damage the sides of the cover...haha...currently i have read till the middle and i am alr hooked onto the book...after typing this, i am zooming back to reading the book...=)

i dun reallie know how to describe the feeling i went thr as i read his book...cos it's reallie sth different...i was glad that i took the book from my colleague's husband...truly am...

for those non football fan, sry for this boring piece, promise to write sth perhaps more interesting next time =)

on thurs i learnt that one of my ex pwc colleagues' dad passed away...it's a very sudden thing cos just a few days ago i was still reading her blog and she was still saying abt how unreasonable etc her dad was...i heard tat he passed away due to a heart attack in china...i dun reallie know how to express the shock i am in now, it's a very weird feeling esp since i duno him at all but i am still in shock and disbelief that he's just gone..just lidat...heard that his body has just been shipped back on fri..
as for my fren, she was in europe travelling b4 her secondment started...heard that she came back on tues...hai~ i am just feeling life is so unpredictable...one minute he was all well and fine, touring in china...the next minute this kinda thing happened....i hope she is feeling alright, she's a strong ger...i believe she will be...

人生无常，请珍惜现在。。。

time to write abt my vietnam trip~
well...basically i wasn't looking forward to it lahz...just that can sit SQ reallie made me quite happie and can go airport..i love our airport :P anywayz friday reallie very slack cos no govt! all the pbs are gone and only left, ade, sy, ys, ky and i in the office...hahaha so ALL of us went out for lunch together, no one stayed in for lunch duty -.- haha...so bo liaoz...at 3+ we all packed up and left for the airport~ all the time i was very sianz actuallie...my weekend will be burnt in vietnam with these ppl...SIAN...after we went in, started shopping! woooooo reallie cheaper cos no gst!!!! ahhhh spoilt for choice! i so wanna buy my cosmetics and perfume and wadever crap there is inside...the airport is a REALLIE good place to SHOP!! ahhh but after shopping so long, i finally bought my first MAC product...a mascara -.- (p/s it's not very good)apparently we spent SOOOOO long shopping, the whole plane was waiting for us to board! i was so amazed that we are the last ppl to board! but anywayz on the plane i was spoilt for choice again...so much to watch, so much to play so little time!! cos the flight only 2 hours -.- only 2 hours still wanna sit SQ...bank reallie very rich...

anw finally reached vietnam..local time 6+ (sing time 7+)...zzz...supposed to have dinner at the hotel, but i so full from the meal on the plane (i dunno why ppl dun like airplace food)...
after the dinner..felix said to bring us to the night market...so off we went...zzz RAINING...totallie spoils the mood...have to hold umbrella while walking/shopping is very very fan...and the traffic there very scary sia...first time i cross the road reallie a bit scared...the motor bikes dun stop at all!!!! omg...scary. anywayz i dun reallie like embroidery and stuffs so the things there reallie dun interest me...i dunno lahz...was very bored and uncomfy the whole time...esp cos got the pbs ard...

anw...so much for the sharing room w ade and sy..in the end i still went back to my room w jh lahz...actuallie also no big deal..by the time i went back, alr 11+ local time...which is 12+ sing time =.= slpy alr...but i woke her up and in the end we chatted over some insignificant things b4 dozing off...............

Morning breakfast! yum! i love american style bkfst...altho no pancakes but got waffles!!! YUM...sat was boring cos in the morning we had "conference" -.- BORING...
in the end we skipped the tour to cu cin tunnel and went shopping but seriously! i dun think the things there are nice lehz...-.- quality not good...price also high...so in the end i bought a shawl at the mkt..and i cannot tahan the horribly messy and congested and narrow lanes...so jenny, lydia and i decided to go somewhere else...=\ in the end we went to somewhere near sheraton...first time in my life, i walked into a gucci shop -.- wooooooooo...they say the guy attendant very shuai...but to me, he's just tall and well built...=.= looks wise reallie so so bahz....then we went into the LV shop...o.o also first time...but i reallie dun see the point in buying such an expensive bag lehz =\ hmmm .......

actuallie i was a little upset during the trip w ade and sy...got on my nerves a few times..tt's typically me lahz..when ppl are closer and leave me out of the loop i will be pissed..=\ zzz
previously they told me abt their fren eunice and how they cannot stand her for the things she did...as they say, i realised i have some similarities w eunice..does tt mean i am as annoying as her as well??? zzz...sometimes i reallie think my character sux as well...hai~

anywayz at night we went on the cruise along mekong river...by then i alr sian dao wanna die liao...then got this magician come to our table and perform some tricks..some tricks he din do too well..can see where the trick lies...hahaha but over all still quite enjoyable lahz..

( ok i am getting lazy) bottomline is i din enjoy the trip even tho it's freeeee...nothing much to see in vietnam also...boringggggggggggg...the onli good thing is the mani and pedicure there VERY CHEAP...french mani is usd6, normal is 4...nail art is usd1 per finger...that's reallie cheap!!! :) but i regret not getting the nail art...arghh...crapping alr....i still have to go back office tml for some simulation for the new system (zzz) but at least i will get paid $_$

zzz just now was chatting w a fren on msn...

started the topic on singlehood again...is it reallie reallie so impt to be attached?? hmmm...like i said b4...no doubt i would like to have a special someone who can share my joy and sorrow but..i am reallie very lazy and seriously dunno where to go and find that someone o.o my fren ask me to go join sdu....zzz...but i feel that if i have to go thr such means to find that someone, it's REALLIE sad...:( hai~ but i think my social circle has shrunk shrunk shrunk or rather it has nv reallie expanded in the first place...bleahz...hao fan orrrr...

last tues went to tony romas with my pwc ex colleagues to celeb one of their bdays...
it's amazing how last time we nv actuallie went out after work...maybe once or twice in the whole 1 yr there...last time i din reallie feel very comfy going out w them but now i miss them like hell...i miss the times i can just walk ard the office and chit chat w them...not like now...just sit at my own place and work work work...:(

we spent abt 3 hours just chit chatting at tony romas that day...talking and bitching abt work..hahaha...it's amazing how relaxed i feel with them now...maybe it's reallie cos we are not working tgt anymore? i dunno...but i like that kinda feeling...很轻松...:) anywayz that day we reallie ate like PIGS! we ordered 2 combo sets, 1 pasta and 2 appetizers and a soup each -.- omg...even tho we are super full we still ordered two desserts! :D the desserts were nice...i like the cookie thingy w ice cream on top! it's very very NICE but not for those who dun like sweet stuffs cos both desserts are like SUPER sweet...名副其实的甜品! :D

then 2 of the prc told me they are going back to china for 2 weeks..o.o and another one is going to hk for holiday...ahhhh~ no one to eat lunch with me!!! :( sadded...
hope they come back soonnnnnnn~~~~my main point of this post is just that i miss them a lot! even just going for dinner also made me so happie....hai~ have i made the wrong choice?? have i...?

You Would Be a Pet Cat

Independent and aloof, you don't like to be dependent on anyone. And as for other people, you can take them or leave them. You often don't care. You live your life by your own rules. And you have deep motivations that no one truly understands. Why you would make a great pet: You're not needy or greedy... unlike other four legged friends. Why you would make a bad pet: You're not exactly running down to greet people at the door What you would love about being a cat: Agility and freedom What you would hate about being a cat: Being treated like a dog by clueless humans

What Kind of Pet Would You Be?

I am not called "meowie" for no reason u know...hhahaha...and i swear i din cheat...i just answered the quiz truthfully~

hello everybody~

i am back...recently so no mood to blog..but nonetheless decided to have a new entry...if not every day see that same post...very boring =p

wellllllll...ppl who were worried for me abt work (if there's anyone)...now i am getting used to the work...tho i still got many things i dunno..but the basics are more or less there le...getting used to the system (altho we will be chging it in jan -.-)...getting used to bloomberg, getting used to taking orders to buy or sell shares...getting used to calling clients and talking to them (altho some are still dam hard to please and fussy and stuck up -.-) but reallie lah...i seemed to finallie get the hang of things...looking back...when i was in pwc last time, ard this time i was also still blur blur abt a lot of things..

perhaps one major chg is due to the fact that my boss is more frenly these days...maybe it's cos some ppl are on block leave..and i feel more at ease when they are not ard...i dunno...hope things stay this way...i overheard (or rather just openly listened) my boss and another banker discussing abt the seating arrangement (like in sch lidat...hahhaha -.-), apparently there will be another banker coming in and i might be assigned to help him instead...according to ade, it's good cos he is very nice (i reallie hope the working experience will be better)..then i have to chg seat to go sit behind..near one of the bankers that i find rather...."unpleasant" to work with..she is ok as a person but when it comes to work she is a bit too fussy and like picking a bone in an egg(translate into chinese urself)...i dun like it ...will feel like i am being scrutinised at work next time since she is sitting diagonally behind me...

sometimes i think working for my current boss directly is quite ok cos some things actuallie she is quite shui bian one..somemore she is very snr so a lot of things she call the shots..listen to her sure correct..=) feels like i am starting to "appreciate" her as a boss...compared to my colleague who is working for the "fussy" banker, i actuallie think i got the better deal (sounds mean to my colleague..=\)

oh well...update again when i chg boss ba..hee..the other cra helping my current boss is coming back on the 10th...so fast hor? i so looking forward, she can teach / look after me..haha..and i so do not wanna deal with one client le..he is also like super dun wanna talk to me lidat...keep thinking i am cheating his money or sth -.- zzz

anywayz....going Saigon on 14th to 16th (i think shld be these dates, the weekend la)...not reallie looking forward to that...becos that means being STUCK in a FOREIGN C'TRY with ppl at work...why do i have to spend a weekend with them =\ i dun wan! i dun wanna waste my weekend.......=( hai~ no choice lahz...hopefully it will be an enjoyable trip ba..that week will also be kaiyun's last week w us as temp..dunno whether they will convert her lehz..i hope they do then at least i have another fren there! at least let her stay for another month as temp...=( once again i miss my pwc colleaguessssssssssss....boohoo....

today have been very busy cos ALL the cra not ard, sy was sick, ade and jiahui had avaloq training, ONLY me left..*stressed*...and the clients call and call ...SO MANY things to do...i so scared i screw up lo...or they ask me sth i dunno..luckily nothing happened...phew~ and boss in good mood...happy happy also make me feel more at ease...haha..dare to ask her more qns...hehe...

alright la...enough of work..

my frenz are finally all back from the US...=) so happie...finallie got more movie kakis...i rem that time wanna watch movie got NO ONE to go watch with me...how frenless can i get...?hai~ sometimes i reallie feel very lonely...wanna go shopping also dunno who to look for...sooooo in the end? i go shopping myself..ha.ha...tragic...i am starting to worry in the years to come when all my frenz start their own families...who do i hang out with...? scary tot.
when i got no one to go out with or dun wanna go out, i stay at home rotting and watching tw drama/variety shows...THAT is my life........PATHETIC..-.- ...hai~ erm..suddenly getting melodramatic (is this how i use this work...?) ...........

ytd went "yum cha" with my family...my treat =D

quite enjoyable..been a long time since we reallie sat down and enjoyed a meal together...everyone has been so caught up in our own world..esp me and my sis i guess...reallie shld spend more time w my parents...

anywayz..i wanted to take photos of the food..but i was so engrossed in EATING..i totallie forgot abt taking photos..the food was not bad =p..costs abt 18 bucks per person after adding in all the service charge and gst crap..ok lahz..at least the food was nice =) i reallie like the shark fin xiao long bao..yum~

before everyone starts to think that i am going craziee..

today @ work was slightly better...i din have as much queries..i hope everyday will be like today or better...hmm...a large part is maybe cos my mood has improved..u know when u are having that thing..can get overly emotional -.- i dunno..

but ytd b4 we went for the "dinner" at fullerton..sth happened at work..hmm..honestly..i think the fault is not mine..cos i reallie am not familiar w the thing..and i just did wad i was told step by step..hmm..so i was a little upset that she made it sound like my fault..becos i nv asked to DO that particular thing..is cos she told me i shld be doing it so i did it and i was given the wrong info when i spoke to that client...hai~and i reallie follow step by step exactly wad i was told...in the end..everyone tot it was my fault..i am not trying to push the blame..if u were in my shoes..u will understand wad i mean...i felt so yuan wang..but can't speak up for myself cos i will sound like an ingrate..so i just sit there while they "discuss" the problem...the wei qu part is..i reallie think is not my fault..=\ not a good idea to work w ur fren..it has its pros but definitely have cons too... but i think i was a bit too harsh in the previous post...she is really doing her best to help me =p i shld reallie be appreciative~~
aiya...anw the pb still said it's ok to make mistakes...and i was like 0.o wah...so "nice" ah? i tot i was gonna get it...hahha..but today i think i came close to getting it...hahhaa..cos she ask me qn and i was like "?" hahaa...luckily in the end i got wad she is asking..i can onli say she reallie needs some time to warm up ba..she's reallie not very frenly...esp to the newbies..i pass her things ah...she like snatch it out of my hands 0.o rude.
dun care le lahz...altho i still dun like that place..i will try to survive and fit in...=)

当生活没有意义，活着与否似乎也变不重要。。。

WORK...

once again i am here to bitch abt my work -.- after 2 weeks and 1 day there at the new place...i feel...horrible~ dun like the ppl..dun like the work...i even dun like how the air smells on that floor...=( then i looked at last yr's july entries...and i realised..i was bitching abt work @ pwc! hahahaha...the irony...yes..i know...it takes time to adapt again..but it reallie doesn't help when the ppl here aren't so frenly u know...thinking of the old witch i am helping...omg..i can go on for days abt her..-.-

she is obviously good in wad she does..i respect tt...but honestly...i think she shld keep her temper in check...she's freaking 59~ wad if she bursts a blood vessel or sth 0.0..ok fine..she hasn't exactly blown her top AT me...i have just witnessed a little of wad she is like when she is "not in a good mood" today...honestly..i was more disgusted than scared..she's quite unreasonable sometimes...i dunno how to describe it..but i dun like the way she treats her staff..they are HELPING u..not ur bloody slaves -.-

why am i so pissed w her? cos she treats me like i am invisible most of the time...she sits diagonally in front of me...my fren behind me..she can shout across ME to tell my fren to tell ME abt sth...WAD AM I? A WALL??wtf?! nvm...today she was a "bit" better..got call my name, she almost got the pronounciation right...almost...congratualations *claps*, talked to me like 2 sentences..hooray i shld start buying TOTO..wad the fuck is so difficult to pronounce abt my name btw?? she is a fucking chinese no? so full of shit! the other ger who came in w me is called jia hui..she can't get both names right..come out from her mouth, both sounds the same...is she bloody stupid or wad?she say her clients will have problem ok lah..i can understand..she also has prob?she is not the onli one apparently...even tho most of the pb can speak chinese..they can't pronounce my name properly...NONE pronounced it correctly and i can't be bothered to correct them reallie..dun wanna waste my breath on smart asses who think they are too good for chinese names -.- the way they joked abt my name..IS NOT FUNNY AT ALL..bunch of bitches..wait till one day I joke abt ur names...how abt tt?? if u can't get it right, then put in MORE effort...dun treat it like a joke..it's disrespectful and makes me wonder if she has just wasted the air and space for the last 59 years..

one thing i am kinda "pissed" is why must I be the one to help her??why ME? why didn't they assign me to the other new pb?? i would not have regretted my decision as much if tt's the case...i am a little disgruntled that my fren din actuallie mention this fact tt i am gonna be assigned to this witch!..felt a little betrayed..a little...nonetheless she is helping in all the way she can in my work..and i appreciate tt..so thank you for the help~(honestly she wun be seeing this as she dun have the habit of reading her frens' blogs at all -.-) but well..still wanna say ty lah...i know i have been quite a nuisance...bugging her every like 10 mins -.-but reallie takes time to get the hang of things..esp these things..i am so unfamiliar w the things i am doing =( i literally threw away all my banking knowledge the minute i stepped out of the exam hall for my last paper~

hai~..VERY unhappie everyday..u know the feeling of dreading to go to work??? i nv dread going to work at pwc even tho the work isn't exceptionally fun...but i have nv DREAD going...at most i grumble a little abt waking early ...but tt's part and parcel of working life..i accept tt..now..even tho i get to wake slightly later..i dun feel happier..i feel so miserable these days...i literally drag myself out of the door..i dread of facing the ppl there...i dread of the work waiting for me..i dread to hear phone ringing...i dread to think of lunch..(cos ade always eat w her classmates and i feel like a super outsider if i join them..and i dun like the feeling of like forcing myself onto others..actuallie real frenz shldn't be so ke qi..but it's just me..i am "ke qi" to almost everyone..i dun like to feel like i am a "burden")..the onli time i look forward to is GOING HOME..not even lunch lehz...tt's reallie saying sth...

sometimes it may sound like i am just picturing myself in the worst scenario and exaggerating the situation..but i reallie am not...last time, i look forward to lunch, i look forward to the gossipy hour after lunch...now...i look forward to the END of lunch..2 hours lunch w no internet and msn sux to the CORE...have u tried that?? have u tried being cut off from the rest of the world and having no one but ur colleagues whom u are not shou with to talk to ?? it sux...which is why i DUN talk..not kidding..i can sit there all the way till lunch without speaking a word unless someone asks me sth or i have to answer phone call...i am alr an introvert...now becoming a hermit lo -.-

u all may think that i have a fren there..things shld be fine..."ha.ha"...trust me..it's not.. i dunno is she dun reallie get the idea that i am NEW there and seriously know no one else except her to lunch with or she thinks i have SOOOO many frenz i can lunch w everyday?sometimes...i actuallie blame her...blame her for ever asking me...i know i shld be grateful...i know....but i still can't help myself..i keep thinking...IF...if i din leave, i would still be slogging in pwc no doubt..but slogging happily...no worries during lunch tt i will have no one to eat with...(does anyone actuallie understands the true agony of having no lunch kakis??got one day i actuallie have no one to eat w..lucky yz was in office...if not i have to pack and eat alone in office..it's very ke lian u know...i feel pity for myself..reallie) ..sometimes i reallie wonder if working w a good fren is a wise choice...i think it tends to strain the r/ship..like got one day i did sth wrong..(it was very minor)..she could have just not mention it when the pb who interviewed me ask me how are things...i mean..if it can be avoided..then DUN mention it..it reallie looks bad on me...u know??first impressions sometimes last very long...and ppl tend to rem the bad things longer than the good...understand how i feel? i feel like i was being betrayed literally...yes lah...probably she din feel there's anything wrong at all...cos she is more shou w them..but i am not leh...hai~ duno how to say..

i regret every min my decision u know? every min! wad better future? crap..yes yes working in banks reallie helps if you are reallie ambitious..and wanna go up the corporate ladder..but me? i am just a simple girl who wants a simple and stable life...now after trying out...it all becomes clear to me..i just want stability! something a bank can't give...there's so much uncertainties..i start to worry abt my increment...will i get much? if i stayed in pwc, i can get 3.7 by the 3rd yr..and come to think of it...i doubt i will get tt much here...seeing how niao that pb is...i dun think my increment will be much...reallie =\ can onli pray the bonus will compensate it...hai~ increment is always better than bonus lo...once it increased, they cannot say they wanna pay lesser next time but bonus is variable...get my drift?

but i shld stop thinking of the "what ifs"...cos even if i DO go back pwc...everything would have changed cos i DID leave them...it will be a different feeling i think...hai~regret regret regret..
stupid me...i dunno if i made that decision on impulse anot? no one realie offered any suggestions to me..all just ask me to decide on my own..i guess i was wrong..i tried listing out the pros and cons...but sometimes..one pro or one con can outweigh the others...why din i see that b4? why was i so stupidly into finding a "better" future?? is this a better future?? until now..i dunno wad i wan..i miss my stable life..i miss my pwc frenz..even if u compare work..the work in bank is more stressful..in fact it's very stressful NOW cos i have NO clue and everyday i face those papers w no idea how to go abt starting on them..CAN'T THEY TELL?? i NEED HELP...bank's work can't wait u know...one day might be measured in thousands..tax? there's always extensions..haha..aiya..forget it..i dun wan to compare..it just hurts more..call me no ambition..but i reallie dun like stress..i like a more carefree life..anywayz not like i going home very early u know..i am going at 7 these days...cos too much shit to clear, too much things to learn and remember.

one reason why i feel so resentful..cos no one seems to reallie understand how i feel...everyone keeps telling me...it will get better...it will..but how am i gonna pass the time in between now and the "getting better"..it's tough..maybe i am reallie one of those "strawberries" ( otherwise known as cao3 mei2 zu2 in chinese) very fragile and vulnerable..bump a bit spoil, squeeze a bit dent...i cannot take hardship..i admit..i am on the verge of crying everyday at work cos there's so much to do and so little time (we have time limit till mkt close) and i am reallie not familiar w the operations of things..u understand the agony and torture of doing sth that u have no idea wad it is abt?!?! DO U??????

i can conclude banking is NOT my thing..reallie..wad interest rates and exchange rates and shit..who cares?!?! i reallie dun...i have no interest..but they will become part of my life..in fact they SHLD alr be part of my life..disgusting..maybe i shld just go and open a shop on my own next time..when i earn enough tt is..hai~ very depressed...will i go crazy one of these days?! i am on the verge of trying to kill myself soon...it's getting scary..i feel so alone...so abandoned..and so mis-understood..so neglected...

ok..i think i typed a lot...as i typed out..i actuallie cried out too..maybe it's a good way of relieving stress...but as time ticks away..i reallie dread the start of tml..tml got a dinner thingy for the whole company..apparently they will say all the new joiners' names and we have to stand up one by one and receive the "applause" given..crap.