it's been 4 months....and i am still regretting my decision....wad a loser.

i am very happy(happy seems like an understatement) with the 8-nil win~ i reallie hope it's not a one off show but more of a start for their improving form...jia you~!

lalala...recently VERY into football so everyday i visit liverpool's website, every weekend i look forward to their matches...but so often i end up in disappointment...liverpool is not the strongest team i gotta admit...but to deteriorate till this stage? i duno wad happened lehz...one word to rafa benitez...pls get rid of voronin and put on a better striker...at least crouch proved more useful than mr wiggly ponytail...stop being blind and say things like sissoko is playing well? how well is that when u pass the ball to ur opponent or lose possession like 11 out of 10 times?? practise on ur passings...stop the freaking long passes when u know u will lose the ball -.-! common sense reallie...i can onli say they have been lucky...how long can they stay this way...?

ktv session was good today! cos only two ppl...singing almost non stop for 4 hours...keke...sometimes singing lets u release pent up frustrations w work...sing out loud...=) i like singing ^_^V and today's kbox so cheap! only 10 after all the +++ ...hehe...

and during work today i realised that i like guys w nice voice aka not too deep kind...guys w deep voice turns me off =\

i am in love with gerrard...i think i am going mad 0.o hehe

其实世界很大，人很渺小。。。我想去看看世界。。。很想很想
发现很多事自己不能掌控，好想逃离这个世界。。。

recently i have been reading Steven Gerrard's autobiography...actuallie i wasn't very keen on reading...so happen my colleague's husband is a liverpool fan and i mentioned that i like gerrard so ta-dah~ he kindheartedly lent me the book...i tot he just say say only, who knows he reallie lent me...very nice...after i got the book i was quite lazy to read it reallie...cos i was still in the drama frenzy...but after all ppl so nice lend me, i shld at least read it and show my appreciation ba...

well well...steven gerrard...how many of my frenz will actuallie know who is that unless u are a football fan...i dunno wad attracted me to notice him...is it becos he is liverpool's captain? i dunno...but just kan de shun yan bah... watching him play, somehow you feel and see the passion for the game itself through him...of cos i am not a super avid soccer fan...but as my likings for sports change, soccer has become one of my latest craze...i was kinda disappointed that he wasn't appointed england's captain when becks quit...but anywayz back to this book that i am reading...

the book is much more captivating than i possibly can imagine...becos it's so real, so true and honest...and he's actuallie quite humorous (in fact he's very funny, as i read the words, i can picture the scenerio in my head!)...i like ppl who are not afraid of saying their fears...inside, u read abt everything, even his "arrogance" shows...the confidence that so many westerners seem to possess which we asians always seem to lack...perhaps it's just me...i can nv be so confident and say that i think i am the best (but being modest is also a virtue ^^...) another reason why i liked that book is cos it's only till now that i knew that he and michael owen has been frenz since YOUNG...like reallie young, i see their photo i wanna laugh, they look so cute!! michael owen is another player that i reallie like...maybe cos both of them have those goodie goodie person look?? inside there are some photos of his family, his daughters and wife...i particularly liked the one where he has his arm over his little girl...so protective, typical good daddy...very heartwarming photo...

i am very impressed with his passion for football...i mean of cos when he writes, he will say he loves the sports blah blah...sorry for being prejudiced but if it was david beckham who wrote that, i might have some doubt, but coming from gerrard? i believe it with all my heart...sorry...can't help being biased =p why am i writing all this crap, some wonder? becos i think this is truly a book worth reading if you are a fan, even if you are not, i think you will entertained by it as well...after reading the book, i just can't help liking him more and more...=) even when i go to office, all i can think of is get off work on time to go home and read the book! i dun dare to bring the book to and fro cos i scared will damage the sides of the cover...haha...currently i have read till the middle and i am alr hooked onto the book...after typing this, i am zooming back to reading the book...=)

i dun reallie know how to describe the feeling i went thr as i read his book...cos it's reallie sth different...i was glad that i took the book from my colleague's husband...truly am...

for those non football fan, sry for this boring piece, promise to write sth perhaps more interesting next time =)

on thurs i learnt that one of my ex pwc colleagues' dad passed away...it's a very sudden thing cos just a few days ago i was still reading her blog and she was still saying abt how unreasonable etc her dad was...i heard tat he passed away due to a heart attack in china...i dun reallie know how to express the shock i am in now, it's a very weird feeling esp since i duno him at all but i am still in shock and disbelief that he's just gone..just lidat...heard that his body has just been shipped back on fri..
as for my fren, she was in europe travelling b4 her secondment started...heard that she came back on tues...hai~ i am just feeling life is so unpredictable...one minute he was all well and fine, touring in china...the next minute this kinda thing happened....i hope she is feeling alright, she's a strong ger...i believe she will be...

人生无常，请珍惜现在。。。

time to write abt my vietnam trip~
well...basically i wasn't looking forward to it lahz...just that can sit SQ reallie made me quite happie and can go airport..i love our airport :P anywayz friday reallie very slack cos no govt! all the pbs are gone and only left, ade, sy, ys, ky and i in the office...hahaha so ALL of us went out for lunch together, no one stayed in for lunch duty -.- haha...so bo liaoz...at 3+ we all packed up and left for the airport~ all the time i was very sianz actuallie...my weekend will be burnt in vietnam with these ppl...SIAN...after we went in, started shopping! woooooo reallie cheaper cos no gst!!!! ahhhh spoilt for choice! i so wanna buy my cosmetics and perfume and wadever crap there is inside...the airport is a REALLIE good place to SHOP!! ahhh but after shopping so long, i finally bought my first MAC product...a mascara -.- (p/s it's not very good)apparently we spent SOOOOO long shopping, the whole plane was waiting for us to board! i was so amazed that we are the last ppl to board! but anywayz on the plane i was spoilt for choice again...so much to watch, so much to play so little time!! cos the flight only 2 hours -.- only 2 hours still wanna sit SQ...bank reallie very rich...

anw finally reached vietnam..local time 6+ (sing time 7+)...zzz...supposed to have dinner at the hotel, but i so full from the meal on the plane (i dunno why ppl dun like airplace food)...
after the dinner..felix said to bring us to the night market...so off we went...zzz RAINING...totallie spoils the mood...have to hold umbrella while walking/shopping is very very fan...and the traffic there very scary sia...first time i cross the road reallie a bit scared...the motor bikes dun stop at all!!!! omg...scary. anywayz i dun reallie like embroidery and stuffs so the things there reallie dun interest me...i dunno lahz...was very bored and uncomfy the whole time...esp cos got the pbs ard...

anw...so much for the sharing room w ade and sy..in the end i still went back to my room w jh lahz...actuallie also no big deal..by the time i went back, alr 11+ local time...which is 12+ sing time =.= slpy alr...but i woke her up and in the end we chatted over some insignificant things b4 dozing off...............

Morning breakfast! yum! i love american style bkfst...altho no pancakes but got waffles!!! YUM...sat was boring cos in the morning we had "conference" -.- BORING...
in the end we skipped the tour to cu cin tunnel and went shopping but seriously! i dun think the things there are nice lehz...-.- quality not good...price also high...so in the end i bought a shawl at the mkt..and i cannot tahan the horribly messy and congested and narrow lanes...so jenny, lydia and i decided to go somewhere else...=\ in the end we went to somewhere near sheraton...first time in my life, i walked into a gucci shop -.- wooooooooo...they say the guy attendant very shuai...but to me, he's just tall and well built...=.= looks wise reallie so so bahz....then we went into the LV shop...o.o also first time...but i reallie dun see the point in buying such an expensive bag lehz =\ hmmm .......

actuallie i was a little upset during the trip w ade and sy...got on my nerves a few times..tt's typically me lahz..when ppl are closer and leave me out of the loop i will be pissed..=\ zzz
previously they told me abt their fren eunice and how they cannot stand her for the things she did...as they say, i realised i have some similarities w eunice..does tt mean i am as annoying as her as well??? zzz...sometimes i reallie think my character sux as well...hai~

anywayz at night we went on the cruise along mekong river...by then i alr sian dao wanna die liao...then got this magician come to our table and perform some tricks..some tricks he din do too well..can see where the trick lies...hahaha but over all still quite enjoyable lahz..

( ok i am getting lazy) bottomline is i din enjoy the trip even tho it's freeeee...nothing much to see in vietnam also...boringggggggggggg...the onli good thing is the mani and pedicure there VERY CHEAP...french mani is usd6, normal is 4...nail art is usd1 per finger...that's reallie cheap!!! :) but i regret not getting the nail art...arghh...crapping alr....i still have to go back office tml for some simulation for the new system (zzz) but at least i will get paid $_$

zzz just now was chatting w a fren on msn...

started the topic on singlehood again...is it reallie reallie so impt to be attached?? hmmm...like i said b4...no doubt i would like to have a special someone who can share my joy and sorrow but..i am reallie very lazy and seriously dunno where to go and find that someone o.o my fren ask me to go join sdu....zzz...but i feel that if i have to go thr such means to find that someone, it's REALLIE sad...:( hai~ but i think my social circle has shrunk shrunk shrunk or rather it has nv reallie expanded in the first place...bleahz...hao fan orrrr...

last tues went to tony romas with my pwc ex colleagues to celeb one of their bdays...
it's amazing how last time we nv actuallie went out after work...maybe once or twice in the whole 1 yr there...last time i din reallie feel very comfy going out w them but now i miss them like hell...i miss the times i can just walk ard the office and chit chat w them...not like now...just sit at my own place and work work work...:(

we spent abt 3 hours just chit chatting at tony romas that day...talking and bitching abt work..hahaha...it's amazing how relaxed i feel with them now...maybe it's reallie cos we are not working tgt anymore? i dunno...but i like that kinda feeling...很轻松...:) anywayz that day we reallie ate like PIGS! we ordered 2 combo sets, 1 pasta and 2 appetizers and a soup each -.- omg...even tho we are super full we still ordered two desserts! :D the desserts were nice...i like the cookie thingy w ice cream on top! it's very very NICE but not for those who dun like sweet stuffs cos both desserts are like SUPER sweet...名副其实的甜品! :D

then 2 of the prc told me they are going back to china for 2 weeks..o.o and another one is going to hk for holiday...ahhhh~ no one to eat lunch with me!!! :( sadded...
hope they come back soonnnnnnn~~~~my main point of this post is just that i miss them a lot! even just going for dinner also made me so happie....hai~ have i made the wrong choice?? have i...?

You Would Be a Pet Cat

Independent and aloof, you don't like to be dependent on anyone. And as for other people, you can take them or leave them. You often don't care. You live your life by your own rules. And you have deep motivations that no one truly understands. Why you would make a great pet: You're not needy or greedy... unlike other four legged friends. Why you would make a bad pet: You're not exactly running down to greet people at the door What you would love about being a cat: Agility and freedom What you would hate about being a cat: Being treated like a dog by clueless humans

What Kind of Pet Would You Be?

I am not called "meowie" for no reason u know...hhahaha...and i swear i din cheat...i just answered the quiz truthfully~

hello everybody~

i am back...recently so no mood to blog..but nonetheless decided to have a new entry...if not every day see that same post...very boring =p

wellllllll...ppl who were worried for me abt work (if there's anyone)...now i am getting used to the work...tho i still got many things i dunno..but the basics are more or less there le...getting used to the system (altho we will be chging it in jan -.-)...getting used to bloomberg, getting used to taking orders to buy or sell shares...getting used to calling clients and talking to them (altho some are still dam hard to please and fussy and stuck up -.-) but reallie lah...i seemed to finallie get the hang of things...looking back...when i was in pwc last time, ard this time i was also still blur blur abt a lot of things..

perhaps one major chg is due to the fact that my boss is more frenly these days...maybe it's cos some ppl are on block leave..and i feel more at ease when they are not ard...i dunno...hope things stay this way...i overheard (or rather just openly listened) my boss and another banker discussing abt the seating arrangement (like in sch lidat...hahhaha -.-), apparently there will be another banker coming in and i might be assigned to help him instead...according to ade, it's good cos he is very nice (i reallie hope the working experience will be better)..then i have to chg seat to go sit behind..near one of the bankers that i find rather...."unpleasant" to work with..she is ok as a person but when it comes to work she is a bit too fussy and like picking a bone in an egg(translate into chinese urself)...i dun like it ...will feel like i am being scrutinised at work next time since she is sitting diagonally behind me...

sometimes i think working for my current boss directly is quite ok cos some things actuallie she is quite shui bian one..somemore she is very snr so a lot of things she call the shots..listen to her sure correct..=) feels like i am starting to "appreciate" her as a boss...compared to my colleague who is working for the "fussy" banker, i actuallie think i got the better deal (sounds mean to my colleague..=\)

oh well...update again when i chg boss ba..hee..the other cra helping my current boss is coming back on the 10th...so fast hor? i so looking forward, she can teach / look after me..haha..and i so do not wanna deal with one client le..he is also like super dun wanna talk to me lidat...keep thinking i am cheating his money or sth -.- zzz

anywayz....going Saigon on 14th to 16th (i think shld be these dates, the weekend la)...not reallie looking forward to that...becos that means being STUCK in a FOREIGN C'TRY with ppl at work...why do i have to spend a weekend with them =\ i dun wan! i dun wanna waste my weekend.......=( hai~ no choice lahz...hopefully it will be an enjoyable trip ba..that week will also be kaiyun's last week w us as temp..dunno whether they will convert her lehz..i hope they do then at least i have another fren there! at least let her stay for another month as temp...=( once again i miss my pwc colleaguessssssssssss....boohoo....

today have been very busy cos ALL the cra not ard, sy was sick, ade and jiahui had avaloq training, ONLY me left..*stressed*...and the clients call and call ...SO MANY things to do...i so scared i screw up lo...or they ask me sth i dunno..luckily nothing happened...phew~ and boss in good mood...happy happy also make me feel more at ease...haha..dare to ask her more qns...hehe...

alright la...enough of work..

my frenz are finally all back from the US...=) so happie...finallie got more movie kakis...i rem that time wanna watch movie got NO ONE to go watch with me...how frenless can i get...?hai~ sometimes i reallie feel very lonely...wanna go shopping also dunno who to look for...sooooo in the end? i go shopping myself..ha.ha...tragic...i am starting to worry in the years to come when all my frenz start their own families...who do i hang out with...? scary tot.
when i got no one to go out with or dun wanna go out, i stay at home rotting and watching tw drama/variety shows...THAT is my life........PATHETIC..-.- ...hai~ erm..suddenly getting melodramatic (is this how i use this work...?) ...........

ytd went "yum cha" with my family...my treat =D

quite enjoyable..been a long time since we reallie sat down and enjoyed a meal together...everyone has been so caught up in our own world..esp me and my sis i guess...reallie shld spend more time w my parents...

anywayz..i wanted to take photos of the food..but i was so engrossed in EATING..i totallie forgot abt taking photos..the food was not bad =p..costs abt 18 bucks per person after adding in all the service charge and gst crap..ok lahz..at least the food was nice =) i reallie like the shark fin xiao long bao..yum~

before everyone starts to think that i am going craziee..

today @ work was slightly better...i din have as much queries..i hope everyday will be like today or better...hmm...a large part is maybe cos my mood has improved..u know when u are having that thing..can get overly emotional -.- i dunno..

but ytd b4 we went for the "dinner" at fullerton..sth happened at work..hmm..honestly..i think the fault is not mine..cos i reallie am not familiar w the thing..and i just did wad i was told step by step..hmm..so i was a little upset that she made it sound like my fault..becos i nv asked to DO that particular thing..is cos she told me i shld be doing it so i did it and i was given the wrong info when i spoke to that client...hai~and i reallie follow step by step exactly wad i was told...in the end..everyone tot it was my fault..i am not trying to push the blame..if u were in my shoes..u will understand wad i mean...i felt so yuan wang..but can't speak up for myself cos i will sound like an ingrate..so i just sit there while they "discuss" the problem...the wei qu part is..i reallie think is not my fault..=\ not a good idea to work w ur fren..it has its pros but definitely have cons too... but i think i was a bit too harsh in the previous post...she is really doing her best to help me =p i shld reallie be appreciative~~
aiya...anw the pb still said it's ok to make mistakes...and i was like 0.o wah...so "nice" ah? i tot i was gonna get it...hahha..but today i think i came close to getting it...hahhaa..cos she ask me qn and i was like "?" hahaa...luckily in the end i got wad she is asking..i can onli say she reallie needs some time to warm up ba..she's reallie not very frenly...esp to the newbies..i pass her things ah...she like snatch it out of my hands 0.o rude.
dun care le lahz...altho i still dun like that place..i will try to survive and fit in...=)

当生活没有意义，活着与否似乎也变不重要。。。

WORK...

once again i am here to bitch abt my work -.- after 2 weeks and 1 day there at the new place...i feel...horrible~ dun like the ppl..dun like the work...i even dun like how the air smells on that floor...=( then i looked at last yr's july entries...and i realised..i was bitching abt work @ pwc! hahahaha...the irony...yes..i know...it takes time to adapt again..but it reallie doesn't help when the ppl here aren't so frenly u know...thinking of the old witch i am helping...omg..i can go on for days abt her..-.-

she is obviously good in wad she does..i respect tt...but honestly...i think she shld keep her temper in check...she's freaking 59~ wad if she bursts a blood vessel or sth 0.0..ok fine..she hasn't exactly blown her top AT me...i have just witnessed a little of wad she is like when she is "not in a good mood" today...honestly..i was more disgusted than scared..she's quite unreasonable sometimes...i dunno how to describe it..but i dun like the way she treats her staff..they are HELPING u..not ur bloody slaves -.-

why am i so pissed w her? cos she treats me like i am invisible most of the time...she sits diagonally in front of me...my fren behind me..she can shout across ME to tell my fren to tell ME abt sth...WAD AM I? A WALL??wtf?! nvm...today she was a "bit" better..got call my name, she almost got the pronounciation right...almost...congratualations *claps*, talked to me like 2 sentences..hooray i shld start buying TOTO..wad the fuck is so difficult to pronounce abt my name btw?? she is a fucking chinese no? so full of shit! the other ger who came in w me is called jia hui..she can't get both names right..come out from her mouth, both sounds the same...is she bloody stupid or wad?she say her clients will have problem ok lah..i can understand..she also has prob?she is not the onli one apparently...even tho most of the pb can speak chinese..they can't pronounce my name properly...NONE pronounced it correctly and i can't be bothered to correct them reallie..dun wanna waste my breath on smart asses who think they are too good for chinese names -.- the way they joked abt my name..IS NOT FUNNY AT ALL..bunch of bitches..wait till one day I joke abt ur names...how abt tt?? if u can't get it right, then put in MORE effort...dun treat it like a joke..it's disrespectful and makes me wonder if she has just wasted the air and space for the last 59 years..

one thing i am kinda "pissed" is why must I be the one to help her??why ME? why didn't they assign me to the other new pb?? i would not have regretted my decision as much if tt's the case...i am a little disgruntled that my fren din actuallie mention this fact tt i am gonna be assigned to this witch!..felt a little betrayed..a little...nonetheless she is helping in all the way she can in my work..and i appreciate tt..so thank you for the help~(honestly she wun be seeing this as she dun have the habit of reading her frens' blogs at all -.-) but well..still wanna say ty lah...i know i have been quite a nuisance...bugging her every like 10 mins -.-but reallie takes time to get the hang of things..esp these things..i am so unfamiliar w the things i am doing =( i literally threw away all my banking knowledge the minute i stepped out of the exam hall for my last paper~

hai~..VERY unhappie everyday..u know the feeling of dreading to go to work??? i nv dread going to work at pwc even tho the work isn't exceptionally fun...but i have nv DREAD going...at most i grumble a little abt waking early ...but tt's part and parcel of working life..i accept tt..now..even tho i get to wake slightly later..i dun feel happier..i feel so miserable these days...i literally drag myself out of the door..i dread of facing the ppl there...i dread of the work waiting for me..i dread to hear phone ringing...i dread to think of lunch..(cos ade always eat w her classmates and i feel like a super outsider if i join them..and i dun like the feeling of like forcing myself onto others..actuallie real frenz shldn't be so ke qi..but it's just me..i am "ke qi" to almost everyone..i dun like to feel like i am a "burden")..the onli time i look forward to is GOING HOME..not even lunch lehz...tt's reallie saying sth...

sometimes it may sound like i am just picturing myself in the worst scenario and exaggerating the situation..but i reallie am not...last time, i look forward to lunch, i look forward to the gossipy hour after lunch...now...i look forward to the END of lunch..2 hours lunch w no internet and msn sux to the CORE...have u tried that?? have u tried being cut off from the rest of the world and having no one but ur colleagues whom u are not shou with to talk to ?? it sux...which is why i DUN talk..not kidding..i can sit there all the way till lunch without speaking a word unless someone asks me sth or i have to answer phone call...i am alr an introvert...now becoming a hermit lo -.-

u all may think that i have a fren there..things shld be fine..."ha.ha"...trust me..it's not.. i dunno is she dun reallie get the idea that i am NEW there and seriously know no one else except her to lunch with or she thinks i have SOOOO many frenz i can lunch w everyday?sometimes...i actuallie blame her...blame her for ever asking me...i know i shld be grateful...i know....but i still can't help myself..i keep thinking...IF...if i din leave, i would still be slogging in pwc no doubt..but slogging happily...no worries during lunch tt i will have no one to eat with...(does anyone actuallie understands the true agony of having no lunch kakis??got one day i actuallie have no one to eat w..lucky yz was in office...if not i have to pack and eat alone in office..it's very ke lian u know...i feel pity for myself..reallie) ..sometimes i reallie wonder if working w a good fren is a wise choice...i think it tends to strain the r/ship..like got one day i did sth wrong..(it was very minor)..she could have just not mention it when the pb who interviewed me ask me how are things...i mean..if it can be avoided..then DUN mention it..it reallie looks bad on me...u know??first impressions sometimes last very long...and ppl tend to rem the bad things longer than the good...understand how i feel? i feel like i was being betrayed literally...yes lah...probably she din feel there's anything wrong at all...cos she is more shou w them..but i am not leh...hai~ duno how to say..

i regret every min my decision u know? every min! wad better future? crap..yes yes working in banks reallie helps if you are reallie ambitious..and wanna go up the corporate ladder..but me? i am just a simple girl who wants a simple and stable life...now after trying out...it all becomes clear to me..i just want stability! something a bank can't give...there's so much uncertainties..i start to worry abt my increment...will i get much? if i stayed in pwc, i can get 3.7 by the 3rd yr..and come to think of it...i doubt i will get tt much here...seeing how niao that pb is...i dun think my increment will be much...reallie =\ can onli pray the bonus will compensate it...hai~ increment is always better than bonus lo...once it increased, they cannot say they wanna pay lesser next time but bonus is variable...get my drift?

but i shld stop thinking of the "what ifs"...cos even if i DO go back pwc...everything would have changed cos i DID leave them...it will be a different feeling i think...hai~regret regret regret..
stupid me...i dunno if i made that decision on impulse anot? no one realie offered any suggestions to me..all just ask me to decide on my own..i guess i was wrong..i tried listing out the pros and cons...but sometimes..one pro or one con can outweigh the others...why din i see that b4? why was i so stupidly into finding a "better" future?? is this a better future?? until now..i dunno wad i wan..i miss my stable life..i miss my pwc frenz..even if u compare work..the work in bank is more stressful..in fact it's very stressful NOW cos i have NO clue and everyday i face those papers w no idea how to go abt starting on them..CAN'T THEY TELL?? i NEED HELP...bank's work can't wait u know...one day might be measured in thousands..tax? there's always extensions..haha..aiya..forget it..i dun wan to compare..it just hurts more..call me no ambition..but i reallie dun like stress..i like a more carefree life..anywayz not like i going home very early u know..i am going at 7 these days...cos too much shit to clear, too much things to learn and remember.

one reason why i feel so resentful..cos no one seems to reallie understand how i feel...everyone keeps telling me...it will get better...it will..but how am i gonna pass the time in between now and the "getting better"..it's tough..maybe i am reallie one of those "strawberries" ( otherwise known as cao3 mei2 zu2 in chinese) very fragile and vulnerable..bump a bit spoil, squeeze a bit dent...i cannot take hardship..i admit..i am on the verge of crying everyday at work cos there's so much to do and so little time (we have time limit till mkt close) and i am reallie not familiar w the operations of things..u understand the agony and torture of doing sth that u have no idea wad it is abt?!?! DO U??????

i can conclude banking is NOT my thing..reallie..wad interest rates and exchange rates and shit..who cares?!?! i reallie dun...i have no interest..but they will become part of my life..in fact they SHLD alr be part of my life..disgusting..maybe i shld just go and open a shop on my own next time..when i earn enough tt is..hai~ very depressed...will i go crazy one of these days?! i am on the verge of trying to kill myself soon...it's getting scary..i feel so alone...so abandoned..and so mis-understood..so neglected...

ok..i think i typed a lot...as i typed out..i actuallie cried out too..maybe it's a good way of relieving stress...but as time ticks away..i reallie dread the start of tml..tml got a dinner thingy for the whole company..apparently they will say all the new joiners' names and we have to stand up one by one and receive the "applause" given..crap.

My last week @ PwC.. (including 1st anniversary of Working life)~

well..my anniversary is actuallie on 3rd july..but this week i have been so busy this week so onli now do i have the time to settle down and write a little on this...

hee..well..my 1st anniversary sorta passed in a flash...went to eat steamboat buffet with ee and yz at hotel royal..(not nice -.-) the dinner was disappointing but nonetheless got to meet up w yz and ee...seems like quite sometime since we reallie met and sit down for a small chat..=) so was kinda happie abt that..

that was also the first time i met tianyun's bf, delanny (i hope i spelt it right)..hee..just when i am leaving..suddenly feel like i am bonding better than ever w the ppl there...that day susan (one of the administators) came and chit chat w me and asked me why i am leaving etc..then jeanie yang also chap in halfway..it's weird..cos when i was there for the whole year..i seldom talk to them..at most is those hi, bye kinda shit..but...well..i guess when u are leaving, ppl starts to treat u differently =\

anywayz, main point is i have worked for ONE whole bloody year!!! actuallie it feels longer than that..perhaps due to the amount of work load...since jan i haven been going home at a decent time..until recently when i know for sure i am leaving, i have been going home at 6+..otherwise, it's mainly 7+, 8 and those horrible days of 9+10 at the beginning of the year..those were the days man...

anywayz this whole week i have been eating like a pig!! tues lunch aglio olio, steamboat dinner, wed lunch had ramen, thurs lunch curry rice, thurs night tony roma's, fri lunch sakae sushi, fri night zhi cha!! omg...SO MUCH FOOD...=( i feel bloody fat!

hee...i felt my whole week was packed w activities...hee..tues night go for anniversary celebration (yay!), wed night went to watch transformers w bao and yz...thurs night went tony roma's w my p&g team + chiam~ and i had no time to pack my things and it's friday!! =.=

anywayz..on thurs went suntec's tony roma's for dinner w them...sat ros' car there..(a little bit of awkward silence..somehow i tink she wanted to fetch ty instead..but welllll..ahahha...actuallie i din reallie talk much at the dinner...nothing to reallie talk to them abt..and when they asked me for a speech i was like "..." hehe...dunno wad to say lahz..so after that we went ben and jerry's...-.- actuallie the whole thing was just abt seow, ty and ros..onli the 3 of them talking..and i was like just hmm..kinda bored..=p and i onli knew that day tt danwei lives so freaking near me 0.o hahha..

FRIDAY - LAST DAY@ WORK...

boohoo...yesterday was my last day at work...i spent my whole day running up and down the building..trying to get ppl to sign that bloody clearance list -.- horrible thing to do...but it's cool in a way cos i nv go to some of the floors and dept b4...=p lunch went w sharon wang and ty to sakae...sharon's treat! (thank you sharon!)

well...finally handed over my seagate (GOODBYE!) and my P&G..a little sad but tt's wad it's abt isn't it? haha..anywayz i spent my last few days "guiding" the new A1 abt P&G stuffs..sometimes i wonder if i was like her when i just came?..someone tells u sth but the next min u forget..but i can distinctly rem wad i told her...i guess tt's wad snr feels like ( it's a good feeling) hahaha..well..i wun get to experience that anymore..

at 4+, li wen they all came to gimme my farewell gift, i saw the BIGGEST GG5 paper bag...inside is a bag =) kinda surprised they got me sth from GG5...happie happie..and they wrote me a card...altho they started with almost the same line of "can't believe u are leaving", the content was all very sweet and full of fond memories..i reallie like to receive cards w content...=D

but wad reallie surprised me were the 2 VTs, of which one i nv even worked with b4! they gave me a little farewell present too =) i think it's reallie sweet!! it's reallie the tot that counts sometimes =)

then ros they all gave me my first real branded present! a TIFFANY necklace~ *eyes sparkle* haha...but i reallie reallie din expect tt lahz..(no wonder ty said i will love my present)..it's a pretty heart necklace =) they also wrote me a card...omg..stupid ros ask me to read it in front of them..(cos she knew i would cry!! she knew it and asked me to read on purpose! grrr) true enough, just read like 2 lines...tears start to gather =.= so i closed the card but the tears still flowed..but no where near as dramatic as it was when i first told ros the news..=p so anywayz it was photo taking session..


CK, me, Ros


ros and me~


me and my lovely neighbour, STY..hehe
(see my necklace?? =p)


Ros, me and STY...oh man i am gonna miss them lots =(


My P&G team (w/o KEL =\)


Me and Sharon Chiam =)


me and shidah =)


my fave gossiping kakis! i will miss all the bitching at work~


my lunch kakis!! i will miss them lots too! =(

i spent such a long time packing my crap =.= in the end i have 4 big bags -.- luckily, chiam was there to help me carry them down =p... i have only been there for a year and i have so much rubbish..haha..and sorrie ty, i forgot to leave tuxedo sam to keep u company =(


well..i have officially left PwC..who knows..maybe one day i will return...who knows...but anywayz..monday will be the start of my new job..hopefully things will be well and all...*looking forward to the future*

the toughest decision i have made...


today i have finally made the decision to move forward and leave my comfort zone @ pwc...i went to talk to pwc hr and my snr mgr ytd...


i deliberated over it for very long...shld i shld i not? but i decided i shld give this a try..a risk no doubt...but a new beginning as well..


went to talk to dorcas ytd and she spent most of her time trying to tell me the career path and how an expert in tax is actually highly sought after ( i dun believe -.-) and how staying here also has a lot of future..blah..anywayz i went to look for her to ask abt the procedures to tender...simple qn...long story =.= still say she sees huge potential in me during the uk secondment interview (excuse me then why nv choose me?)..do u know if i was chosen, there's no way i would quit? hahaha but tt's another story ...


so after talking to her, she said i shld talk to someone who has been in this line for a longer time to hear diff points of view...ok..i agreed..so i decided to go talk to ros..it was too emotional for me to bear...i only walked in talked for barely 2 sentences and i started T_T like tap lidat..non stop..she say i am so silly..i agree..but i reallie very she bu de...my whole year here...i have been working for them...like 3/4 of the time..i find it hard to say good bye...but i am glad that she understands and she is very encouraging..(imagine if i go talk to tsn, she will scream at me, scold me for being irresponsible and all)...actuallie maybe part of ros also tot so..but at least she din show or say...so i am happie abt it...she was so nice...she offered to help me write a testimonial...and also to talk to hr abt it if i need her to...she asked me if chging is reallie wad i want...actuallie i DUNNO wad i want..tt's WHY i am going to try out banking..if things reallie dun work out there..i think i will come back..altho quite hard to pull down my face and ask..i dunno..now i can't reallie see wad lies ahead..it's a big unknown...but i've decided to take the risk nonetheless..wish me luck!

i think it's not only the ppl that i miss..it's the whole idea of not being able to come back to this building, this office, this seat...(today's a saturday as i typed..the top was saved on fri)..even taking the lift made me sad...this will be the last weekend i will come back to pwc! hai~ am i the only loser that will cry so much when leaving?? =\ but just very sad...everytime anyone mentions abt it..i will start to tear...>_< ytd talked to my dad abt leaving, then he said "but i see u are so sad to leave pwc" then i start to T_T AGAIN...shit..just so emotional abt this..hai~ ytd also talked to shidah abt it a little..then also teared..wah lao..i spent my time in office tearing...zzz
hai~

but yes..i have finally signed the offer letter ie NO TURNING BACK..and i tendered alr..altho carol say that i have to pass to tsn in the end...cos james not in office till tues..which might be reallie quite late since i am leaving on 6th...so ...wish my GOOD luck manz..talking to tt auntie on monday will reallie be a horrible experience...i alr can picture the horrible scene..and i think i WILL..yes..once again cry...zzz freakz..i am reallie made of water -.-

anywayz i am starting on 9th...a little excited but more of scared and SIAN...cos i reallie dun like to adapt to a new place all over again..and i dunno if the ppl there will be nice anot...ade said the pte banker tt i will be helping is very fierce..>_<" i am scared...but i shan;t think so much liaoz...shun qi zi ran...just like when i first came, i also scared like hell but i have survived till now..=p yes! i just need some time to adjust~

maplesea 2nd anniversary at suntec city

haha..time for some more light hearted things..i went to the maplesea anniversary at suntec on saturday w ade and her bro..haha..so funny...we look so out of place there...2 23years old and 1 21 years old...lol..the place turned out to be pretty small..a little disappointing cos i tot it will be more big scale and more decorations...but no leh...only minimal deco...the top of the booths were mushrm tops...got blue, green, horned, zombie and the orange ones..lol...dam weird got red colour ones...and we were like thinking...maple got red mushrm..? =\ lol
the stage was for the gacha mob...(sth like bingo lidat) based purely on luck...the most interesting thing for me is the music played...lol~ all the maple songs...i feel like i am reallie walking in maple o.o hahaha...quite funni lahz...then see so many kids and their parents ... i think some of the parents also got play..seriously..haha
anywayz we din reallie play the games since mostly for kids and seriously, too juvenile for us to participate..=\win le also feel paiseh kind...hehe...so we onli participate in the gacha mob ...where we can just sit there and look at our cards...keke..anywayz, in the end, after verifying our acct and turning the zakum hand of fate (50 50 chance of getting hit or miss), ade and i both got hit on first try...ade's poor bro got miss on both tries =(...anywayz ade got a maple memo pad and i got an asiasoft water bottle?!?! the water bottle very ugly =( i very sad...i rather get memo pad...lol...
anywayz overall quite fun lahz...cos first time join real life maple event.kekeke...and prob will be the last time...
btw...a mini shopping spree in mango, i got a pair of jeans for 49 bucks~!!! hehehe...thx to ade for bugging me to try on the jeans =) ade's poor bro...kept running in and out of the mango shop cos every 30 mins is the gacha mob thing...so i think he went out like 3 times...meaning we spent almost 2 hours in the shop! one shop onli lo..haha..i am happie w the jeans i got..altho compared to ade, my jeans is nothing..she got a pair of jeans, a berms/shorts and a skirt...i tot the skirt was a bit pricey..63 bucks...but she say mango things...so i was like..ok..=\