the much anticipated xmas celebrations are over...happy that we managed to meet up but sad that it's over...i had my long awaited break (1 day off) from work...4 days of work free life is... dam shiok! no need to face the ppl at work, no need to look at the things at work, no need to breathe in the horrible office air...i feel freeeeeeeeee...as tho i was back as a student on holidays...but...4 days sorta flew by...and i am back to sq 1...but at least on mon, the atmosphere was christmasy, making everyone hardly in the mood for work...by 230, the office is 2/3 empty...onli our team has 2/3 of us still ard...bloody hell...technically she din restrict us from leaving but neither did she said we could leave...so it's back to boring o' work...sux to the core reallie =.= the more i am at it, the more i dislike it...hai~

today's wed, seems like it shld be a short week but 3 days seem so LONG...i can't wait for the weekend to come again...sad...but the arrival of this weekend would mean the departure of jy...sighz...it seems like just last month when u came back and now u are going back again...so fast...hardly had time to meet up more often...=\ we must go for one last ktv session b4 u go ok??

好久没有静静地坐下来聊天，谈心了。。。感觉好好。。。希望在未来的日子里也能常常这样。。。在忙了一整天后，跟朋友聚聚，聊天说笑。。。

it's fun planning our xmas party...i can't put my finger on wad exactly makes it so fun and exciting...i guess it's just the whole process of coming up w the activities bah...esp planning the shi zhi lu kou...i laugh till i got tears =P...reallie enjoyed tonight...=)

Work...

work has been...as i always said, boring...last time it was boring cos i keep repeating the same things (which every job is prob abt the same actuallie) and now it's boring cos i reallie have NOTHING to do everyday...i know i shldn't bitch abt it...it sounds simple doesn't it? sit there all day till 530, and get paid for doing so? but it makes life very meaningless...i have no purpose in life, nothing to look forward to...no chance to learn new things, no chance to contribute, no chance to SHOW that i am competent of the things we are supposed to do...if i have no chance to prove myself...then where will the pormotions and recognition come from? the change from pwc to here is big...there, i was recognized for the hard work, appreciated for the time i spent on completing my work, rewarded for the effort put in...here...?

i duno...i will be happie to get away w a little increment -.- that sux. i did the math...somehow it just doesn't seem as lucrative to stay here...esp since i din do much...what bonus can they give me? oh God...the more i think of it, the more depressing it sounds...AND i dun like the idea that ppl of the same rank can get diff pay?!?!?! i mean the job scope is the same lehz...=.= honestly...how can a fresh grad get more than someone who has 1 yr working exp alr??? such unfairness disgusts me to the max. alright...enough of whining...i reallie just hope things will improve la...everyday sit there and stare at the screen with NO internet can get very depressing over time...u feel very useless...maybe i shld start looking for a new job.........................................

weee...it's been awhile since i am in the mood to do anything except watch soccer -.- haahhaa...i have given up my maple alr...i just dun find the attraction of it anymore...esp when everyone i know is like taking over my lvl -.- tt feeling sux...take over then take over ok?no need to keep reminding me abt it ............
anywayz, watching Liverpool matches is my latest craze...which i am glad to have...at least there's sth to look forward to...=)

it's been 4 months....and i am still regretting my decision....wad a loser.

i am very happy(happy seems like an understatement) with the 8-nil win~ i reallie hope it's not a one off show but more of a start for their improving form...jia you~!

lalala...recently VERY into football so everyday i visit liverpool's website, every weekend i look forward to their matches...but so often i end up in disappointment...liverpool is not the strongest team i gotta admit...but to deteriorate till this stage? i duno wad happened lehz...one word to rafa benitez...pls get rid of voronin and put on a better striker...at least crouch proved more useful than mr wiggly ponytail...stop being blind and say things like sissoko is playing well? how well is that when u pass the ball to ur opponent or lose possession like 11 out of 10 times?? practise on ur passings...stop the freaking long passes when u know u will lose the ball -.-! common sense reallie...i can onli say they have been lucky...how long can they stay this way...?

ktv session was good today! cos only two ppl...singing almost non stop for 4 hours...keke...sometimes singing lets u release pent up frustrations w work...sing out loud...=) i like singing ^_^V and today's kbox so cheap! only 10 after all the +++ ...hehe...

and during work today i realised that i like guys w nice voice aka not too deep kind...guys w deep voice turns me off =\

i am in love with gerrard...i think i am going mad 0.o hehe

其实世界很大，人很渺小。。。我想去看看世界。。。很想很想
发现很多事自己不能掌控，好想逃离这个世界。。。

recently i have been reading Steven Gerrard's autobiography...actuallie i wasn't very keen on reading...so happen my colleague's husband is a liverpool fan and i mentioned that i like gerrard so ta-dah~ he kindheartedly lent me the book...i tot he just say say only, who knows he reallie lent me...very nice...after i got the book i was quite lazy to read it reallie...cos i was still in the drama frenzy...but after all ppl so nice lend me, i shld at least read it and show my appreciation ba...

well well...steven gerrard...how many of my frenz will actuallie know who is that unless u are a football fan...i dunno wad attracted me to notice him...is it becos he is liverpool's captain? i dunno...but just kan de shun yan bah... watching him play, somehow you feel and see the passion for the game itself through him...of cos i am not a super avid soccer fan...but as my likings for sports change, soccer has become one of my latest craze...i was kinda disappointed that he wasn't appointed england's captain when becks quit...but anywayz back to this book that i am reading...

the book is much more captivating than i possibly can imagine...becos it's so real, so true and honest...and he's actuallie quite humorous (in fact he's very funny, as i read the words, i can picture the scenerio in my head!)...i like ppl who are not afraid of saying their fears...inside, u read abt everything, even his "arrogance" shows...the confidence that so many westerners seem to possess which we asians always seem to lack...perhaps it's just me...i can nv be so confident and say that i think i am the best (but being modest is also a virtue ^^...) another reason why i liked that book is cos it's only till now that i knew that he and michael owen has been frenz since YOUNG...like reallie young, i see their photo i wanna laugh, they look so cute!! michael owen is another player that i reallie like...maybe cos both of them have those goodie goodie person look?? inside there are some photos of his family, his daughters and wife...i particularly liked the one where he has his arm over his little girl...so protective, typical good daddy...very heartwarming photo...

i am very impressed with his passion for football...i mean of cos when he writes, he will say he loves the sports blah blah...sorry for being prejudiced but if it was david beckham who wrote that, i might have some doubt, but coming from gerrard? i believe it with all my heart...sorry...can't help being biased =p why am i writing all this crap, some wonder? becos i think this is truly a book worth reading if you are a fan, even if you are not, i think you will entertained by it as well...after reading the book, i just can't help liking him more and more...=) even when i go to office, all i can think of is get off work on time to go home and read the book! i dun dare to bring the book to and fro cos i scared will damage the sides of the cover...haha...currently i have read till the middle and i am alr hooked onto the book...after typing this, i am zooming back to reading the book...=)

i dun reallie know how to describe the feeling i went thr as i read his book...cos it's reallie sth different...i was glad that i took the book from my colleague's husband...truly am...

for those non football fan, sry for this boring piece, promise to write sth perhaps more interesting next time =)

on thurs i learnt that one of my ex pwc colleagues' dad passed away...it's a very sudden thing cos just a few days ago i was still reading her blog and she was still saying abt how unreasonable etc her dad was...i heard tat he passed away due to a heart attack in china...i dun reallie know how to express the shock i am in now, it's a very weird feeling esp since i duno him at all but i am still in shock and disbelief that he's just gone..just lidat...heard that his body has just been shipped back on fri..
as for my fren, she was in europe travelling b4 her secondment started...heard that she came back on tues...hai~ i am just feeling life is so unpredictable...one minute he was all well and fine, touring in china...the next minute this kinda thing happened....i hope she is feeling alright, she's a strong ger...i believe she will be...

人生无常，请珍惜现在。。。

time to write abt my vietnam trip~
well...basically i wasn't looking forward to it lahz...just that can sit SQ reallie made me quite happie and can go airport..i love our airport :P anywayz friday reallie very slack cos no govt! all the pbs are gone and only left, ade, sy, ys, ky and i in the office...hahaha so ALL of us went out for lunch together, no one stayed in for lunch duty -.- haha...so bo liaoz...at 3+ we all packed up and left for the airport~ all the time i was very sianz actuallie...my weekend will be burnt in vietnam with these ppl...SIAN...after we went in, started shopping! woooooo reallie cheaper cos no gst!!!! ahhhh spoilt for choice! i so wanna buy my cosmetics and perfume and wadever crap there is inside...the airport is a REALLIE good place to SHOP!! ahhh but after shopping so long, i finally bought my first MAC product...a mascara -.- (p/s it's not very good)apparently we spent SOOOOO long shopping, the whole plane was waiting for us to board! i was so amazed that we are the last ppl to board! but anywayz on the plane i was spoilt for choice again...so much to watch, so much to play so little time!! cos the flight only 2 hours -.- only 2 hours still wanna sit SQ...bank reallie very rich...

anw finally reached vietnam..local time 6+ (sing time 7+)...zzz...supposed to have dinner at the hotel, but i so full from the meal on the plane (i dunno why ppl dun like airplace food)...
after the dinner..felix said to bring us to the night market...so off we went...zzz RAINING...totallie spoils the mood...have to hold umbrella while walking/shopping is very very fan...and the traffic there very scary sia...first time i cross the road reallie a bit scared...the motor bikes dun stop at all!!!! omg...scary. anywayz i dun reallie like embroidery and stuffs so the things there reallie dun interest me...i dunno lahz...was very bored and uncomfy the whole time...esp cos got the pbs ard...

anw...so much for the sharing room w ade and sy..in the end i still went back to my room w jh lahz...actuallie also no big deal..by the time i went back, alr 11+ local time...which is 12+ sing time =.= slpy alr...but i woke her up and in the end we chatted over some insignificant things b4 dozing off...............

Morning breakfast! yum! i love american style bkfst...altho no pancakes but got waffles!!! YUM...sat was boring cos in the morning we had "conference" -.- BORING...
in the end we skipped the tour to cu cin tunnel and went shopping but seriously! i dun think the things there are nice lehz...-.- quality not good...price also high...so in the end i bought a shawl at the mkt..and i cannot tahan the horribly messy and congested and narrow lanes...so jenny, lydia and i decided to go somewhere else...=\ in the end we went to somewhere near sheraton...first time in my life, i walked into a gucci shop -.- wooooooooo...they say the guy attendant very shuai...but to me, he's just tall and well built...=.= looks wise reallie so so bahz....then we went into the LV shop...o.o also first time...but i reallie dun see the point in buying such an expensive bag lehz =\ hmmm .......

actuallie i was a little upset during the trip w ade and sy...got on my nerves a few times..tt's typically me lahz..when ppl are closer and leave me out of the loop i will be pissed..=\ zzz
previously they told me abt their fren eunice and how they cannot stand her for the things she did...as they say, i realised i have some similarities w eunice..does tt mean i am as annoying as her as well??? zzz...sometimes i reallie think my character sux as well...hai~

anywayz at night we went on the cruise along mekong river...by then i alr sian dao wanna die liao...then got this magician come to our table and perform some tricks..some tricks he din do too well..can see where the trick lies...hahaha but over all still quite enjoyable lahz..

( ok i am getting lazy) bottomline is i din enjoy the trip even tho it's freeeee...nothing much to see in vietnam also...boringggggggggggg...the onli good thing is the mani and pedicure there VERY CHEAP...french mani is usd6, normal is 4...nail art is usd1 per finger...that's reallie cheap!!! :) but i regret not getting the nail art...arghh...crapping alr....i still have to go back office tml for some simulation for the new system (zzz) but at least i will get paid $_$

zzz just now was chatting w a fren on msn...

started the topic on singlehood again...is it reallie reallie so impt to be attached?? hmmm...like i said b4...no doubt i would like to have a special someone who can share my joy and sorrow but..i am reallie very lazy and seriously dunno where to go and find that someone o.o my fren ask me to go join sdu....zzz...but i feel that if i have to go thr such means to find that someone, it's REALLIE sad...:( hai~ but i think my social circle has shrunk shrunk shrunk or rather it has nv reallie expanded in the first place...bleahz...hao fan orrrr...

last tues went to tony romas with my pwc ex colleagues to celeb one of their bdays...
it's amazing how last time we nv actuallie went out after work...maybe once or twice in the whole 1 yr there...last time i din reallie feel very comfy going out w them but now i miss them like hell...i miss the times i can just walk ard the office and chit chat w them...not like now...just sit at my own place and work work work...:(

we spent abt 3 hours just chit chatting at tony romas that day...talking and bitching abt work..hahaha...it's amazing how relaxed i feel with them now...maybe it's reallie cos we are not working tgt anymore? i dunno...but i like that kinda feeling...很轻松...:) anywayz that day we reallie ate like PIGS! we ordered 2 combo sets, 1 pasta and 2 appetizers and a soup each -.- omg...even tho we are super full we still ordered two desserts! :D the desserts were nice...i like the cookie thingy w ice cream on top! it's very very NICE but not for those who dun like sweet stuffs cos both desserts are like SUPER sweet...名副其实的甜品! :D

then 2 of the prc told me they are going back to china for 2 weeks..o.o and another one is going to hk for holiday...ahhhh~ no one to eat lunch with me!!! :( sadded...
hope they come back soonnnnnnn~~~~my main point of this post is just that i miss them a lot! even just going for dinner also made me so happie....hai~ have i made the wrong choice?? have i...?

You Would Be a Pet Cat

Independent and aloof, you don't like to be dependent on anyone. And as for other people, you can take them or leave them. You often don't care. You live your life by your own rules. And you have deep motivations that no one truly understands. Why you would make a great pet: You're not needy or greedy... unlike other four legged friends. Why you would make a bad pet: You're not exactly running down to greet people at the door What you would love about being a cat: Agility and freedom What you would hate about being a cat: Being treated like a dog by clueless humans

What Kind of Pet Would You Be?

I am not called "meowie" for no reason u know...hhahaha...and i swear i din cheat...i just answered the quiz truthfully~

hello everybody~

i am back...recently so no mood to blog..but nonetheless decided to have a new entry...if not every day see that same post...very boring =p

wellllllll...ppl who were worried for me abt work (if there's anyone)...now i am getting used to the work...tho i still got many things i dunno..but the basics are more or less there le...getting used to the system (altho we will be chging it in jan -.-)...getting used to bloomberg, getting used to taking orders to buy or sell shares...getting used to calling clients and talking to them (altho some are still dam hard to please and fussy and stuck up -.-) but reallie lah...i seemed to finallie get the hang of things...looking back...when i was in pwc last time, ard this time i was also still blur blur abt a lot of things..

perhaps one major chg is due to the fact that my boss is more frenly these days...maybe it's cos some ppl are on block leave..and i feel more at ease when they are not ard...i dunno...hope things stay this way...i overheard (or rather just openly listened) my boss and another banker discussing abt the seating arrangement (like in sch lidat...hahhaha -.-), apparently there will be another banker coming in and i might be assigned to help him instead...according to ade, it's good cos he is very nice (i reallie hope the working experience will be better)..then i have to chg seat to go sit behind..near one of the bankers that i find rather...."unpleasant" to work with..she is ok as a person but when it comes to work she is a bit too fussy and like picking a bone in an egg(translate into chinese urself)...i dun like it ...will feel like i am being scrutinised at work next time since she is sitting diagonally behind me...

sometimes i think working for my current boss directly is quite ok cos some things actuallie she is quite shui bian one..somemore she is very snr so a lot of things she call the shots..listen to her sure correct..=) feels like i am starting to "appreciate" her as a boss...compared to my colleague who is working for the "fussy" banker, i actuallie think i got the better deal (sounds mean to my colleague..=\)

oh well...update again when i chg boss ba..hee..the other cra helping my current boss is coming back on the 10th...so fast hor? i so looking forward, she can teach / look after me..haha..and i so do not wanna deal with one client le..he is also like super dun wanna talk to me lidat...keep thinking i am cheating his money or sth -.- zzz

anywayz....going Saigon on 14th to 16th (i think shld be these dates, the weekend la)...not reallie looking forward to that...becos that means being STUCK in a FOREIGN C'TRY with ppl at work...why do i have to spend a weekend with them =\ i dun wan! i dun wanna waste my weekend.......=( hai~ no choice lahz...hopefully it will be an enjoyable trip ba..that week will also be kaiyun's last week w us as temp..dunno whether they will convert her lehz..i hope they do then at least i have another fren there! at least let her stay for another month as temp...=( once again i miss my pwc colleaguessssssssssss....boohoo....

today have been very busy cos ALL the cra not ard, sy was sick, ade and jiahui had avaloq training, ONLY me left..*stressed*...and the clients call and call ...SO MANY things to do...i so scared i screw up lo...or they ask me sth i dunno..luckily nothing happened...phew~ and boss in good mood...happy happy also make me feel more at ease...haha..dare to ask her more qns...hehe...

alright la...enough of work..

my frenz are finally all back from the US...=) so happie...finallie got more movie kakis...i rem that time wanna watch movie got NO ONE to go watch with me...how frenless can i get...?hai~ sometimes i reallie feel very lonely...wanna go shopping also dunno who to look for...sooooo in the end? i go shopping myself..ha.ha...tragic...i am starting to worry in the years to come when all my frenz start their own families...who do i hang out with...? scary tot.
when i got no one to go out with or dun wanna go out, i stay at home rotting and watching tw drama/variety shows...THAT is my life........PATHETIC..-.- ...hai~ erm..suddenly getting melodramatic (is this how i use this work...?) ...........

ytd went "yum cha" with my family...my treat =D

quite enjoyable..been a long time since we reallie sat down and enjoyed a meal together...everyone has been so caught up in our own world..esp me and my sis i guess...reallie shld spend more time w my parents...

anywayz..i wanted to take photos of the food..but i was so engrossed in EATING..i totallie forgot abt taking photos..the food was not bad =p..costs abt 18 bucks per person after adding in all the service charge and gst crap..ok lahz..at least the food was nice =) i reallie like the shark fin xiao long bao..yum~

before everyone starts to think that i am going craziee..

today @ work was slightly better...i din have as much queries..i hope everyday will be like today or better...hmm...a large part is maybe cos my mood has improved..u know when u are having that thing..can get overly emotional -.- i dunno..

but ytd b4 we went for the "dinner" at fullerton..sth happened at work..hmm..honestly..i think the fault is not mine..cos i reallie am not familiar w the thing..and i just did wad i was told step by step..hmm..so i was a little upset that she made it sound like my fault..becos i nv asked to DO that particular thing..is cos she told me i shld be doing it so i did it and i was given the wrong info when i spoke to that client...hai~and i reallie follow step by step exactly wad i was told...in the end..everyone tot it was my fault..i am not trying to push the blame..if u were in my shoes..u will understand wad i mean...i felt so yuan wang..but can't speak up for myself cos i will sound like an ingrate..so i just sit there while they "discuss" the problem...the wei qu part is..i reallie think is not my fault..=\ not a good idea to work w ur fren..it has its pros but definitely have cons too... but i think i was a bit too harsh in the previous post...she is really doing her best to help me =p i shld reallie be appreciative~~
aiya...anw the pb still said it's ok to make mistakes...and i was like 0.o wah...so "nice" ah? i tot i was gonna get it...hahha..but today i think i came close to getting it...hahhaa..cos she ask me qn and i was like "?" hahaa...luckily in the end i got wad she is asking..i can onli say she reallie needs some time to warm up ba..she's reallie not very frenly...esp to the newbies..i pass her things ah...she like snatch it out of my hands 0.o rude.
dun care le lahz...altho i still dun like that place..i will try to survive and fit in...=)

当生活没有意义，活着与否似乎也变不重要。。。