almost 2 years

and my appetite problem still persists...i think it's time i visit the doctor again...i think i have like some phobia in eating outside :\ it's like...so stressful whenever i think of eating...when will i ever be able to appreciate food again...? ;~;

i read online that these symptoms might be caused psychologically (which may be cured by taking some mild anti depressant pills)... which i believe is prob the case too...cos i onli seem to have this problem whenever i have to eat out...ie where there are lots of ppl...i just have this "stress" coming from eating ...which is like so ridiculous -.- sigh

Bigbang Alive World Tour

My little confession: i don't wanna see blue haired TOP...i want the ash-blond/brown hair to appear in Singapore...i don't wanna see long extended hair GD...i want to see black normal hair to appear in Singapore.

I do wanna see maknae in the wifebeater and daesung w the beautiful wings :)

so another year has passed...

another round of disappointment.

when u are not in a job that u like, what do u use to obtain job satisfaction?

i am a simple girl. a realistic girl. increments and bonuses are the simplest ways to tell me the bank appreciates me, my hard work. what do i get in the end? no promotion. no increment. a minute bonus. wonderful. ppl who has been slacking their asses the whole yr gets the promotion. ppl like me and jh who have slogged like mad get.......no promotion. where's the logic? where's the justice? this just further reinforces the fact that life is unfair.

sometimes i wonder am i expecting too much? but how can anyone, anyone dare to tell me in the face that i have not been short changed after comparing w fellow CRAs in the bank?! ppl who came in for only a yr gets promoted. ppl who can go home at 6 gets promoted. ppl who does almost no sales marketing gets promoted. ppl who came in for 5 yrs, works till 8/9pm daily, calls clients to sell products almost daily gets..nothing. how is this fair?

and yes, being the immature and extremely emo me cried at home after enduring to keep the tears in the whole afternoon at work.

i can't wait to say goodbye to this shithole.

Intro + Knock Out @ MAMA 2010 :)

this is the first time i really looked at the lyrics :) i love u GTOP haha

Gaho :D

i am living my life on livejournal and tumblr these days :P

Home Alone Days~

Cleaning the house

De-cluttering

Cooking my own meals...

Egg coated toast + coffee

Instant Prawn Mee + Fried egg + potato/fries-wannabe

tons of shoes :) it's reallie not that many righttt :P

i threw away like 5 pairs in the end...doesnt help that i bot another 2 pairs in KL and a pair of boots during some sale lol

decluttering my old old cds..as much as i dun wan to, these went into the bin...they were just sitting on my shelves anywayz...and i duno where is my modern rock cd! argh it was one of my fave!

i still kept some cds tho...like my westlife and 2 jap ost cds :) i love them too much to throw :p

i do enjoy these short period of being home alone...it feels as tho i have more freedom even tho its not like my parents restrict me to do anything or wad but it's just a feeling of doing things as i please...

G Raim > Gil Raim

I can't believe that LJ's sis said that G Raim is prettier than Ha Ji Won....hahaa omg..and of cos if Kim Joo TOP is the male lead of secret garden, it will be much more worth watching and will probably be my fave drama ever :P

Big Bang won the MTV EMA! :)

Gosh i am still on a high after like 15hours~ haha i am so happy to see all 5 of them on stage again and the happiness radiating from them :)))))))))))) these are happy days and may more come along soon :)

Happy Birthday Choi Seung Hyun~

Saengil Chukha Haeyo TOP!

Japan Japan...

Yes in less than a week's time i will be in Japan for the 2nd time!! can't wait~! i hope the weather is GOOD :)

it's good to go away too, away from internet and away from the drama unfolding in korea.

GD

yet another negative news that will hinder their comeback. no japan promo for GD&TOP, no solo comeback for GD, no comeback for Big Bang. Why do they face so much obstacles while others have it so much easier? :| sigh.

GD

Loving GD and his limited english...so adorkable~! :)

GTOP

Reallie...this is just a fangirl's rant...

Cindy is so gonna scold me for turning down the F1 tix..i am just a fickle minded little shit who can't decide between being able to watching GTOP and Seungri vs the dread of squeezing with kazillion ppl i.e. being blocked and end up seeing heads instead of the ppl on stage..

Cindy first told me she couldn't get any tix for me on thurs, i was like...great! no need to think abt it since i dun even have a tic, then she whatsapp me on fri MORNING and said she will give me HER tic i.e. i will go alone but i will have access to zone 4 where the performance will be at~! fuck! -.- i was totally unprepared to go for the show since i tot there was no way she could get me tix...:\

i decided against it since #1: squeezing w the crowd is like asking me to die, #2: i am freaking short, even on heels i dunno how much of the stage can i see above other ppl's heads, #3: i already planned to go home early to go exercise, #4: GTOP will be performing the same songs (Oh Yeah, high high, Knock out) for sure (i wasn't expecting them to perform intro and how gee with Ri though -.-), #5: their performance only starts at 11pm (so late!) so i turned cin down...even tho she tried to persuade me with at least another 3-4 msgs...but i said no.

In the afternoon i told lj and ade abt the tic...and BOTH of them were like "WHAT?! u gave up the chance to see top and gd?! are u crazy?" etc and instantly started to persuade me to go...i started to sway...anw i asked cin if her tic had seat no on it? turns out it does have a seat no to it...decision decisions...

then i re-tot, even if so the tic is for the race, not for the performance, freakz!

anw when she replied "ops, u wanna go ah?" i reckoned she must have given it away already...so i was all paiseh and all and told her nope, i was just curious (lousy liar.)

at 5+ Cin called me! she said she can go w me if i wan to cos she managed to get 2 tix from her colleague who is not going~! grrrrrr~~!! why oh why do u have to torment me with this option, if she told me straight out "no more tix!" i wun even have to fret over this -.- so anw i was already planning on going home at 6 sharp so i said nope AGAIN. (but i do thank her for trying ever so hard to help me get the tix!)

After all these, i saw the fan cams and photos today. and i regret. sux.

:(

Korean Music Wave 2011

Back from seeing GD&TOP, Seungri, Taeyang and 2NE1 live!! WOOOOOOO i love 2ne1! :D

and top was surprisingly frenly today :) ahhhh~ months of waiting and it ended so fast...sigh~

Daesung

I am really quite upset whenever i read about the news of Daesung and the recent accident...i really shouldn't be that upset...he's not even someone i actually KNOW...he's just a celebrity, a member of a group that i like...but yet whenever i read negative news abt him / YG family for that matter...i just can't control myself and feel really upset...i think i am going crazy.

europeeee

i shld really get started on blogging abt my europe trip but i am soooooooooooo lazy and soooooooooooo occupied w big bang :| hahaha

We went to the same go kart in jeju!

Top and GD :)

I know..cheap thrill :P

Big Bang on Infinity Challenge :)

credits:Sara @ bbupdates

Day 8

Day 8: Goodbye Korea

We went down a little earlier than the arranged time cos yz decided to buy another pack of masks wakakaa :P it's reallie hard to resist when it's so cheap~

More photo taking b4 we say goodbye to the hotel...

Errr ya the focus was meant to be Siwon but i kinda wanna be seen too :| hahahah

Off to a bit more shopping..the heels there are not cheap, abt 40+ per pair but i can tell it's of good quality lah...just a bit heart pain so i did not buy them plus i am not wearing very easy to take off shoes for trying~ in the end got a couple more accessories even tho they are quite ex...now i can really understand why other places sell korean accessories at such a high price...even in korea, they are not cheap :\

anw the clothes are not that cheap either...onli those that were on sale are ok...i think i will stick to hk and tw for clothes bah :| but i will definitely go korea to get their beauty products! seriously i wanna go in summer so that the luggage will have more space for things bot :D

Got my new hat!

the weather was still pretty cold that day...even though i was wearing 2 layers alr but still cold esp when the wind blows...

Then off to take the seagull cruise...basically the coach gets on the boat as well and cross the sea...the weather then was REALLY cold, i really tot my nose might fall off anytime and my fingers were frozen :'(

the seagulls had very good aim though, anywhere u throw the crackers, they can catch it...u can be sure that they dun waste food haha

After going to a "provision" store to get our food - where i got my seaweed and some yummy chocolate pie made of mochi-like and peanut fillings, we headed for the airporttttttttttt...T_T

At the airport...the first time in my life, my luggage was overweight -.- like seriously, they set the max as 25, and in the end, my luggage was like 28kg! -.- faintz...and bao's one was 29! lol shesh...the whole tour and only the 2 of ours are overweight ! how embarrassing..and the tour guide still say we carry gold back?! -.-"

Last group shot which our tour guide asked a pretty lady to help us take, once she took it, she left, as if afraid we will ask her to take more...haha...according to bao, even tho mr tour guide kept saying he will miss us etc...the moment we queued to go in, he disappeared..lol

Went to starbucks again...seems like we like to go starbucks while waiting to board our plane...ahhahaa...and we poured out all our loose change to get our drinks and the ahjuma next to us kept staring at us as if thinking these 3 girls are so poor that they had to pour their money to buy a drink -.- seriously. don't judge so readily. anw we noticed that they actually have this to sort out their trash..guess it's easier to recycle them?

While waiting to board, Annyeong!