hmm..some tots tt i feel like saying out loud...

well..i am..and have always been a little disgusted with the way 2 of my frenz are behaving..like they are two freaking twins...i admit...it is a good feeling to be very close to someone and know that u can depend on that person whenever u need help etc..but their closeness has reached a stage where i find it revolting...is it possible that one day they can learn to be independent of each other...? and be on their own?
ever since jc, uni, now work..they have always been sticking together...it gets to a point when it's just too much! maybe it's reallie like fated for them to be stuck together..?i dunno...but ewww..i cannot take it..
excuse me?? dun u all have an identity of ur own?how can 2 ppl stick to each other like glue?? i cannot stand it..call me sour grapes or wadever lah..but seriously..i think they need to stop living in their own world...hello? du li yi dian hao ma??
there was a time when i tot i have gotten used to it..but i realised it is just that i chose to ignore this...cos everytime i think of it...they disgust me...so much so that i dun wanna be ard them at all...being close is fine, being close till u have no identity? i cannot deal with that...i feel like the two of them have become an entity..not 2 separate ppl...ewww...the sheer tot of it...gross...
maybe..just maybe i am jealous..how come they always have company in wadever they did? for me..i have always been alone...always...since pri sch, i went to my sec sch alone...from sec to jc, also alone...from jc to uni's course, alone...from uni to work, ALONE...everytime, my good frenz will end up in the same sch or course..always me alone...i dunno if that's called independent? or no choice? hmmm...but i have alr gotten used to doing things on my own, being on my own...in fact i ENJOY this feeling of being alone...which is why i can't stand it when the 2 of them are always doing things TOGETHER...omg...pls...get a life of ur own...they dropped f maths together, went to acc together, took the same classes, went for the same electives, took up the same job, ended up in the same dept...ewwwwww...maybe it's just me..but i cannot stand it...cannot at all...