20 years old age
10 years old mentality
30 years old body

i dunno how long before i will start to age...but my mentality is still so freaking dependent on my parents...i dun feel like a grown up at all...23 years old...sounds so old...but i am still behaving like a 10 years old...everything waiting for my parents to solve for me...it's time i be responsible for myself.

Looking at the VTs in my office made me realise just how OLD i am...being young is reallie so different..the vibrance...the energy...i reallie have no energy at all to do the things they do..and the things they say? i can nv bring myself to say those...it's beyond me...that came the point when i can't deny i am old anymore...look ard us...how many successful ppl are younger than us...i feel like i am wasting my life away..waiting for the end to come..my life will fade away quietly, peacefully as though i nv exist..sudden disgust with the way i am spending my youth away...i can nv be young again..but am i doing something hong hong lie lie so that i can recall back when i am older and smile at those memories?

i just read on the net abt a ger who died cos she was working for very long hours with the lappie on her lap...apparently...there was a blood clot formed and when she stood up, the clot flowed to her heart and she collapsed on the spot...scary...i dunno if that is true...but anywayz ppl..pls be careful...and try to take a break once in awhile while working...

once again..i am in the office on a weekend...today's a sunday...i ask myself..am i just plain inefficient? or do i reallie have a lot to do? hmmm...everyday i grumble grumble abt the load of work..but seriously...if i din spend time chatting on msn, chatting on sametime, surfing net..would i have finished them on time? =( i dunno...i dunno how to cope w my programs..P&G alone can kill..let alone seagate?? argh...i cannot stand seagate...i rather do other programs than that...it's so confusing and irritating..boooo..why oh why did they take away my other programs but left me stuck w seagate?? i am getting a little worried...are they taking away some of my program cos they think i am incapable? no doubt, it's a relief when they lighten my portfolio..but still...i dunno wad they were thinking when they did that..i can onli hope it's cos my snr mgr wants to lighten my burden..and not scare me off when i am still an A1...keke...
peak period so far has been...well..manageable...thanks largely to my colleague who sits beside me..every little qn i go bug her..^^;; i haven stayed till the lengendary 12 midnight...cos the ppl in my team seldom...usuallie only till 10++ so i am kinda lucky in a sense to be in this team...hopefully nothing much will chg when i become an allocation holder...=) wish me luck in july~

i am kinda regretting telling the world i signed up for the slimming thing..now ppl expects results..if there's none, wad will they think? snigger behind my back and say waste so much money and no results..? if anyone says that in front of me...i swear i will reallie slap that person..
some ppl ard me reallie dunno how to cha2 yen2 guan1 se4...ppl's face alr so black still continue joking or harping on the same thing...-.- *shake head* sometimes..i reallie cannot stand such ppl...they think it's funni then wad abt the person who is the one being teased??? very senseless.
bottomline is...i kinda reallie wished no one knew abt it...maybe except ade who can understand wad i feel =P but then again, she also scold me stupid ger T_T no one understandsssssssss...hai~..hope all goes well...i reallie wanna wear my sleeveless tops and walk ard with my head held high!

why are some guys so jian and lame?
i am starting to think that maybe we are seeing more and more gers that are "heartless" or behave like players to protect themselves from being hurt from such jerks......
gers shld reallie learn to protect themselves...when a guy changes heart(literally translation from chi) ...he can be totally freaking JIAN! when u see situations when the guy is a freaking jerk, u can't help but wanna scold that ass and beat the shit out of him...i dun understand how the mind of a guy work? no love = no friendship?? hmmmmmm...even if there's no frenship, u dun have to hurt others -.- total disregard for others' feelings just to get wad u want? equals a despicable piece of shit!

(dun worry..nothing happened to me :P just some tots on recent events)